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𝙮𝙤𝙪'𝙧𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙚𝙘𝙝𝙤



Assalamualaikum and Hi!
It's been a while on here, and I MISS BLOGGING SO MUCH! Acah je hahahaha. Rasa macam sem ni tak se-hectic sem lepas, a few subjek habis kelas awal, tapi macam tak pernah ada masa nak betul-betul duduk and blogging. Rasanya sebab sem ni semua benda lebih tersusun, macam sem-sem lepas, tengah-tengah sem tak busy, tapi minggu 13-14 tu busy nak mamp0s. Meanwhile sem ni by week 13 almost every quiz, labtest dah settle, tinggal ada satu subjek je kot camtu tak settle. Tak kisahlah semua tu kan, yang penting sem ni aku banyak gila tidur hahahaha.

       Masa untuk ayat cliche, sedar tak sedar,pejam celik pejam celik, dah nak masuk 2018. Seriously, kalau tanya aku sekali imbas apa aku dah buat tahun ni, aku pun tak tahulah. Oleh itu (cewah), dengan adanya entry ni, aku nak imbas berkali-kali apa yang aku buat tahun ni.

       First of all, 2017 has been such a hell of roller coaster ride, and I'm not even kidding. 2017 is definitely a year to remember as it has re-shape me as a person. It has also been a year of lessons. I do learn lots of lesson and it does affect me which something that I'm glad because it means aku dah realize lah kan apa salah silap aku, and in a way I'm trying my best to improve as a person. So, this year... Hmmm, got my heart broken (for the first time evah), and then broke someone's heart(lol), and currently signing up myself for another heartbreak hahaha. Tak serik tu, tapi I've been more careful this time, and lesson learnt- do not put your hope too high on anything, and anyone. Ni ayat berkias. Ayat direct straight to the point nya KO JANGAN CAYE LAKI SWEET TALKER NI YE YE PANGGIL SAYANG LAYAN BAIK TAPI LAST LAST HARAPAN PALSU KO BOLEH GI TERJUN TASIK UTeM!!

Hahahahaha gurau je.

       This year, I've lost a very dear friend of mine, arwah Wahida, and a very close uncle, arwah Pakndak. It hits me real hard, to be honest, especially arwah Wahida. Seminggu lepas pemergian dia pun I still cry at night. I can't believe I'm already at the age of losing a friend of the same age, and I just can't believe she's... not here anymore. Masa tu aku tengah cuti sem, tak sempat nak tengok muka dia for the last time, tapi Alhamdulillah dapat hantar dia till the very last moment. She's such a nice friend, sumpah. I've said this on twitter, tapi aku selalu kacau dia, tenung je dia sampai dia sorok muka guna literally everything dia boleh capai, pastu dia je kata muka aku macam Song Jihyo ahahahahahahahahahahhaha hmm, lepas tu dia selalu seronok kalau Shida tak datang so dia boleh duduk sebelah aku. And a lot more memories that I don't even realize we actually shared quite a lot together. But she's in a better place now, no more pain for her and it does make me feel better at that thought. Kita pun entah bila tiba masanya kan? Al Fatihah, Nurul Wahida binti Zainal.

      Arwah Pakndak pulak, God, he's really a good guy. Which is probably why Allah takes them first. Pakcik yang paling rapat belah ayah aku, dia la yang memang rapat sangat since kecik lagi. Dia panggil aku 'beliau' sebab siapa baca majalah Ujang dia tahu lah ada sekor lembu ni dipanggil 'beliau' so he basically calls me a cow hahahaha. Lepastu dia berniaga burger dekat pasar malam, jual RM1 je. AND coconut shake dia sedap gilaaaaa!! Kalah Melaka punya Klebang ke, Batu Berendam ke, nothing can top his coconut shake! Dah lama tak rasa, dah bertahun dah. And dah takkan dapat rasa dah lepasni :')  AND NASI BERIANI DIA TERBAIK WA CAKAP LU. Lapar pulak hmm. Oh and selain tu sejak aku belajar dekat Melaka dia selalu la asal jumpa aku je sebut "merecik hawau" hahahaha. Hmm, rindu sangat. Sangat. Minta jasa baik korang doakan untuk 3 orang anak dan balu arwah, doakan mereka dipermudahkan urusan dan dimurahkan rezeki ya. Terima kasih sangat-sangat. Al Fatihah, Mokhtar bin Abd Majid.

      On the other note, I'm also proud of myself on quite a few things I did this year. First of all, ok ingat tak heartbreak tu sorry la asyik mention je, IT WAS MY FIRST HEARTBREAK uwu poor my weak heart. Okay actually la I break my own heart even before it gets broken hahahaha. Sebelum orang tinggalkan aku baik aku yang tinggalkan dia supaya ada lagi secebis maruah seorang Zahidah yang egois yang berjaya diselamatkan. Of course la after I noticed the other side cam hmmm tak ada effort pun, maka kita kena sedar diri ya anak-anak. Orang tak nak takpe, takyah terhegeh-hegeh! Walaupun dia cam perfect, I like everything about him huhu. BUT! Remember this, S-E-L-F W-O-R-T-H. He, or she might worth it, but darling YOU WORTH MORE. Ingat tu.

So I left him la and he comes back cari me after some time la and I tunjuk tak berminat la boleh bla la.

And he stop chasing la I sedih jugak la tapi takpe la maybe wrong time la ada jodoh ada la.

       So untuk mengubati hati yang lara ini aku start belajar handlettering, here's the entry if you wanna read 👉 clickbait . It does help me to change my focus, instead of 24/7 wondering whyyyyyyyy my (almost) relationship didn't work out whyyyyy tak lawa ke aku ni tak cukup kelakar ke aku ni, I start to wonder WHY AM I SO TALENTLESS SMH FML. Tapi lepastu jangan down pulak, usaha lagi to make yourself better! Lepastu hmm cara aku berfikir pun dah berubah jugaklah somehow, dah jadi makin positif, mungkin berkat selalu cari positive quotes untuk di-handletter-kan hahaha. Since I'm not the one who reti nak make up, nak berfesyen tu minat je tapi duit takde, so aku macam takde passion on anything. So macam nak release stress dengan shopping pun, tak tahu nak shopping apa. Tapi sejak berjinak (sumpah aku tertypo berjimak tadi astaghfirullah!!) dengan handlettering ni, rasa seronok walaupun masuk Mydin tengok section watercolour. Walaupun dah ada, tak beli pun, tapi rasa macam satu kepuasan and happy tengok benda-benda tu semua. Ala korang faham kan maksud aku? Ke tak faham? Buat-buat la faham okay sapot lokal #tetiba.

       AND!!! Pencapaian yang boleh kata terbesar aku tahun ini ialah jeng jeng jeng, I SUCCESSFULLY DID BULLET JOURNALING! It's my first time, and sumpah dari January sampai May, bujo aku noob gila hahahaha. Strating from June onwards barulah boleh dikatakan membanggakan lah bujo aku tu hahaha. Best tau buat bullet journal, ni pun antara benda yang distract aku daripada heartbreak. It's one of the way I release my stress too, walaupun kalau nak ikutkan stress apalah sangat aku ni belajar pun main-main hahahaha. It's the charm of doing something you love, I guess. Penat mana pun kalau buat benda yang kita suka daripada nak tidur tak jadi tidur. I'm happy because I finally found something that makes me happy. Nanti, tak tahu lah bila, but nanti, I might do an entry on how to bujo, but in a cheap way, for a cheapskate. (vocab credit from Amelynn lol).

Okay so what I benefit from bujo-ing this whole year is first, release stress. Second, rasa cam ada life hahaha. Third, you can write down memorable things you did! I mean, yeah of course you have blog and all tapi alaa blog takes too much time, for me la. Seronok tauuu bila kawan kau cam throwback balik something yang korang buat sama-sama and kau actually boleh selak balik kau punya bujo and have the exact date when it happened. Kena cuba rasa that feeling- sooooo satisfying rasa cam oh tersusunnya hidup ini hahaha. Forthly, lebih organized. I wrote down my to-do list, checked apa yang dah buat apa yang belum, apa yang nak beli, harga dia berapa lepas survey dekat situ, sini, then compare. Fifth, satisfying- sebab kau boleh decorate each page tu dengan apa theme kau suka. Nak theme pastel ke black & white ke nak theme Go Green pun boleh. Best laaaaaaa faham kan best? Hahahaha.

 And in my opinion bujo does help to improve my mental health, sebab it kind of like a diary for me sebab instead of planning, aku lebih kepada jot down apa aku dah buat, apa aku rasa. Macam, kalau kau bengang dengan someone ke kau tulis je dalam bujo tu. Nak certa dekat orang aku faham sekarang ni banyak backstabber, ramai tak boleh dipercayai and so on, so daripada kau simpan, baik kau luahkan dekat bujo kau. Tak kisah la nak buat bentuk point ke peta minda ke essay ke, as long as you let things go. Also helps you daripada simpan dendam. And kalau perempuan kan katakan la that day pakwe kau main game sampai tak layan kau, haa tulis dalam bujo nanti 10 tahun akan datang kau ungkit. "You ingat tak dulu 15 May 2017 you tak reply whatsapp I 3 jam sebab main game?" Kalau dia tanya mana bukti, haa kau ada bukti. Pastu suruh dia belanja makan okay hahahaha. Berguna tak berguna bujo ni? 😂

        So, basically, that was my 2017. It was about how I break, and how I found myself again- but a better version. Doesn't matter how many new things you tried, how many new people you meet, how many times you cried, even with the tiniest thing changed about you, as long as it makes you a better you, then it's alright. Your progress might be different from others', your way of fixing the broken you may be different from me, but as long as you're healed, you're happy with yourself, then you should be proud. Don't be too hard on yourself, take your time, don't mind your pace but what matters is you keep moving forward. And yang paling penting, REALIZE YOUR SELF WORTH PLEASE tu je mami mintak 😭

        Let's hope for a delightful 2018. Even if it'll be hard, let's have strength to overcome every obstacle!!! Happy new year everyone, thank you for reading my 'ugh' blog, yang bahasa rojak melayu english rempitz ni hahaha. Thank you for everything! Comments dari korang semua warga blogger pun banyak buat aku happy, serius. Cayunk u guys so much 💓

Hopefully 2018 Zahidah dah boleh la tinggalkan bahasa rempitz hahaha.

Thank you 2017, you'll be remembered :')

Bye, Assalamualaikum 😊

And I'm 20 next year like seriously??!?!?!?!?!?!!!!?!
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Assalamualaikum!
So, as the title, in this post I'm going to review a Korean movie entitled A Stray Goat. This movie came out April last year kalau tak silap. The main reason why I am watching is because the main actor is Park Jinyoung from GOT7 hehe. Walaupun dah lebih setahun released, aku baru macam tergerak hati and terasa ada mood nak tengok harini, so here I am. Actually, tak berniat pun nak tulis review, but ada a few messages in this movie yang aku rasa berbaloi kalau share. Before we start, this post contains SPOILER yang kaw piaw punya spoiler. I'll start off with the synopsis first, nanti bila dah masuk tang spoiler, aku letak spoiler alert, okay? This is my first time writing a review for a movie so please bear with my amateur review hahaha. So let's start with the movie poster first:


This is the link to the movie: Nunbal | Movie trigger warning: Bullies, lots of cursing, sexual assault

      The movie starts off with the main character, Cho Minsik, a priest's son, moving from Seoul to a rural village because his father is re-opening an abandoned church. There, he started to be friends with a few bad kids, who like to bully a girl named Yang Yejoo, because of her father was accused to kill one of the classmate's sister. Long story short, along the way, Minsik and Yejoo became friends, and even closer when Minsik showed her a stray goat that he found in the mountain.

I don't want to go in detail about what happens in  the movie, but what I'm gonna say first is, after watching this movie, the first thing that came in mind is literally "???????????????". Or at least that was how it was for me. Aku tenung skrin lama sikit, fikir-fikir kejap, barulah, "Oh..........." and it left me speechless, honestly. 

What I'm about to say after this contains light spoiler, but the message behind the scene was something worth the spoil. Ni, memang pada aku pengajaran paling besar dalam cerita ni.

      There's this one scene when Yejoo goes to the church to find Minsik after he was absent at school. Dia datang bawak kambing dia, naik bas, and even though pakcik bas tu marah sebab mana boleh bawak kambenk kan naik bas. Then sampai church tu, dia berhenti dekat satu lopak air ni. Aku legit ingat dia nak tengok reflection dia je, sekali, dia pijak lopak air tu, kaw kaw kotorkan kasut dia, then, she walked in the church. Masa tu orang dalam church tu tengah baca doa lah kan, dia jalan selamba je dengan kambing tu, bawak lumpur masuk church. Sampailah this one pakcik halau dia sebab ye lah, dahlah bawak masuk kambing, kotorkan pulak tu. Then she saw Minsik, hoping that he would say something, but Minsik buat-buat tak kenal je. (fuck u minsik)  Dah kena halau, Yejoo pun keluar lah. But then, she saw the same asshole pakcik dalam church, and instead of being embarassed of himself, he looked at Yejoo with the dirtiest look possible. (fuck u also pakcik)


This scene, is actually, very deep. The metaphor is just... mindblowing.

The goat represents as history of what had happened to Yejoo. She lost a very precious thing, but the bad history and memory remains with her everywhere she goes. What's done remained done. Remember the pakcik bas? Pakcik bas represents the public. Public will hate you because of your history, but what can you do? It's stuck with you forever. It's not like you can just leave it anywhere. 

The lopak air, represents as human's sins. Before Yejoo pijak lopak air tu, kasut dia bersih. Bila dia dah pijak, kasut dia kotor. Dia bawak dosa-dosa dia ke mana pun dia pergi.

Then she walked in the church, along with her bad history, bad memory, trauma, etc, along with the sins, but what did the people at church, who was supposed to be the "kind one" did? They looked at her with such judging looks, and chase her away from the church.

Is the church, or in our Malay culture lah, the mosque, or any religion place(?), religion house(?), is supposed to be for people who are religious only? Or, religious people kena kawan dengan religious people only? Yang ada dosa? Yang ada mistakes????

Disclaimer: aku tak kata semua orang alim berperangai begitu, tapi, walaupun sikit, ada tau golongan macam ni. Mana tahu terkena pulak dia baca post aku ni hehe. This is a note to myself too.

Ok tu je yang deepnya hehe.


---SPOILER ALERT---

Movie ni, sebenarnya, tergantung.  It has no definite ending. Ada ending, nanti aku cerita pasal ending dia, tapi ending tu tak semestinya ending. Faham kan? Ke tak? Seriously kalau korang tengok movie ni korang fahamlah maksud aku tu. After I finished watching the movie, I looked at what Jinyoung(who plays as Minsik) got to say about the movie and his character, and then I understand. I understand what the movie was about. 

       There's a lot of questions with no answer, honestly. In the earlier part of the movie, it was said that Minsik had to move to Goseong because he caused some trouble back then in Seoul. What he did, remains unknown until the end of the movie. Which I think means that we don't always know what happens in other people's live, what they've been through etc. Yejoo's father was accused as a killer, and there was this one part where he denied it when he was asked, but there was no final result, whether he really killed the victim or not. And also, the ending, which I said isn't definite. Yejoo was absent at school so Minsik was kind-of looking for her, but she was nowhere to be found. While walking, Minsik came across the stray goat that both he and Yejoo cherish a lot, but the goat was alone. Minsik chased for it, but he stumbled and fell down a few times, until the last time he fell, he just gave up and lay down, staring at the cloud, crying, until the snow came down. And that's it. The indefinite ending. We won't know if Minsik ever got up and chase again, if he found Yejoo, if he ever apologize to her, if he ever ended up with any relationship with her, no. We don't know what happens to Yejoo either. The ending is Minsik laying down, crying, what I see as regretting, and that's it.

Now, I'm about to elaborate on the climax of the story. Korang mesti curious kan kenapa Minsik ada rasa menyesal? Why did I mentioned if Minsik ever apologize to Yejoo? 

       Long story short, adalah sorang pakcik ni dia claim anak kambing yang Minsik dengan Yejoo jumpa tu dia punya kambing. Yejoo didn't want to let the goat go, so Minsik made a promise to the pakcik that he will buy the goat instead. But he got no money lorh this stupid boy 😑 Janji nak bagi duit the next day pulak tu eyyy bodoh ke? Haa marah ni marah. But he got the money. How? You watch sendiri la hahaha. He got the money, then the money got stolen pulak dah satu hal, and while dia pergi lawan-lawan nak ambik duit tu semula, Yejoo go to meet this pakcik alone. Yejoo still refuse to give the goat, so that pakcik mengamuk lah sebab dah lah duit takde, kambing kau nak. Banyak cantik muka kau? So pakcik tu pukul-pukul Yejoo, and then the pakcik being his asshole self, he raped Yejoo. THIS IS WHERE I GOT SO EMO LAH SEBAB MINSIK THEN DATANG LARI-LARI AND MASA TU PAKCIK TU DAH SIAP HIS DIRTY BUSINESS WITH YEJOO(it wasn't showed in detail don't worry) TAPI KIRANYA MINSIK TU TAHULAH KAN YEJOO TU KENA RAPE, PASTU, PASTU, PASTU, DIA BOLEH BLAH??????? WTF???? BRUH?????

This is why I have trust issue with good looking guys. Mesti, adaaaaa je yang tak kena. Aku cuba lah husnudzon ok mungkin dia gi panggil polis ke, orang lain ke nak mintak tolong kan? But no. He didn't come back...

The saddest thing is, Yejoo saw him running away 😭

Yejoo get the goat, but she lost her dignity. She went to school the next day, bringing the goat along. Of course lah she gets bullied and called names for it, but she didn't care enough. Lagi sedih, Minsik was absent that day.

After that, the scene yang Yejoo pergi church tu happened. 
Remember how Minsik only saw the goat alone, but without Yejoo? Like I said earlier, the goat symbolizes what happened to Yejoo. Minsik saw the goat because he actually knows. He'll be haunted with the regret, probably forever. Even when Yejoo is not there anymore. Anything could've happened to Yejoo, either she ran away, or no longer alive, but the history, what happened, what Minsik witnessed, happened, and nothing could change that fact.

After I finished watching, of course lah I couldn't help but to wonder why didn't Minsik say anything, do anything when he saw what happened to Yejoo and afterwards. The actor, Jinyoung himself pun kata dia tak puas hati kenapa character dia tak macam hero-hero filem yang lain. The answer, kinda blows my mind. Below is an interview with Jinyoung:

---END OF SPOILER---


There's also other messages in the story, that I'd like you to experience watching it by yourself, experience that "Oh........." moment when you finally understand. 

My comment about this movie is, this is a movie with an ordinary story, with ordinary characters, and ordinary ending, but still an amazing movie, nevertheless. 

It's realistic. No fairy tale kind of stuffs. Hero or not, in the end of the day, an ordinary human being has both strength and weaknesses. 

If you ask me to rate, 7.5/10 for storyline, 100/10 for the messages and uniqueness. Tapi perlu sel-sel otak berhubung lebih sikit lah sebab deep 😂

Okay, that's all kot yang I have to say about this movie. Sorry if my review is bad, berterabur ke apa ke. Sorry for the extreme rojak-ness ahahahaha that's just how I write. Some things are more comfortable written in english, while some in malay. Another review that I suggest you to read is here (but this one really contains lots of spoiler as it elaborate most scene in detail, so don't read if you're planning to watch the movie first!) 

Bye, Assalamualaikum 😊

17/10/17 😳💓
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Assalamualaikum!
Sebelum aku mulakan entry ni, nak cakap, awkward pulak nak menaip sebab dah lama tinggal blog ahahaha. Ampun maaf pada yang melawat blog ni tapi terpaksa menghadap post yang dah berkarat. Sebenarnya dah lama dah nak post entry ni tapi tahap kemalasan nak ambik gambar, edit, dan upload tu sangaaaaatlah tinggi.

     Sepanjang cuti sem 3 bulan ni, dengan bangganya aku nak bagitahu bahawa aku basically tak buat apape yang berfaedah pun. Rutin yang sama je tiap-tiap hari. Cuma, sejak-sejak cuti ni, aku try buat handlettering!! Dah lama dah nak cuba, I've tried it before tapi buruk nokharom pastu give up. Ni lepas tengok one of my coursemate, Amelynn post story dekat Instagram, aku pun tetiberrrr semangat nak buat jugak. Excited gila beli brush- Pentel Aquash Water Brush, harga RM 10.40 boleh jumpa kat Popular. Siap beli sketchbook, watercolour guna adik punya je jenama Buncho sebab nak beli cam membazir entah jadi entah tak kan. Tapi best la masa usha-usha barang tu dengan adik, dia memang minat benda-benda berkaitan art ni, so dia pun excited sekali masa nak membeli. So balik terus try guna brush, ni, masa memula aku try guna, tak tengok video ke apa ke:

*istighfar banyak-banyak sebab buruk sangat*

Yang bebanyak Aina tu adik aku yang tulis sebab dia obses dengan diri dia sendiri.
Ni pulak lepas try tiru-tiru contoh kat gugel:


Konon masa ni dah lawa sangat dah ni hahaha dah terbayang boleh buat duit. Istighfar lagi sekali.

But seriously, handlettering is a lot more fun than I expected. Walaupun stress sebab tak reti sangat nak guna berus, and like I said dekat title tu, aku ni tangan kayu orangnya. Tapi aku minat art, cuma cam emmmm takde bakat hahaha. Lepastu adalah tiru-tiru quotes dekat google, weheartit, and these are the progress:

 Quote tiru. Ni buat masa first day belajar handlettering lol

Quote tiru 2.0

This one sesaje ceconteng, tapi lowkey nak jugak buat nampak cantik hahaha. 

Ugh sorry this one is so low quality. Youngjae's favourite quote and his nickname 💖

 Song lyrics 💖 Nervous gila buat ni sebab takut spoil background dah lawa (lah jugak). Lama kot nak tunggu kering tu hahaha.

this one in goes in my bullet journal 💖

 Song lyrics again. I just love this lyric so why not hahaha. Getting Wet by Beenzino.

 Ni antara yang latest tapiiii buruk af sebab tangan gigil. Bila nak buat yang serious, yang bajet-bajet macam kalau jadi nak post kat instagram, mestiiiiiii tangan gigil gila. And mulalah semua huruf tak jadi. 

Ni yang paling latest, untuk birthday Nazeera, 3/9/2017. Honestly hmmm bangga lah jugak dengan yang ni hahaha. Glitter-glitter tu guna Art Rangers Glitter Tempera Paint, beli kat Mr. DIY harga RM 2.90 ke 3.90, tak ingat hehe. 

Tu a few yang sedap mata memandang, yang selebihnya.... Istighfar banyak-banyak lagi. Hahaha. The point of this post is bukan nak kata aku buat handlettering ni lawa, just nak share the progress from buruk nak mampus, and sekarang boleh la kan, ada la jugak rupa walaupun still tangan gigil hahaha. And ni jugak untuk rujukan akan datang, mana tahu nanti gambar hilang ke, nak kena delete ke, at least dalam blog dah ada.

       Now, kumpul duit, berjimat cermat nak beli better brush, watercolours. Benda-benda ni semua nak kata murah, tak jugak. Nak jadi cantik mahal, nak jadi berseni pun mahal, and lagi parah bila nak jadi dua-dua pada masa yang sama 😂 

       Lastly, nak kata, kalau korang ada teringin nak belajar or buat something, go for it! Start now! Cantik ke, jadi ke, tak penting, yang penting bila dah cuba tu puas hati. Jangan expect terus perfect, and jangan cepat sangat give up tau! Mula slow-slow, at that one point walaupun belum sampai level perfect, bila you tengok balik your progress and improvement, rasa puas hati sangat. Rasa macam wow bangga and sayangnya diri sendiri 💞 

Ok tu je. Bye.
Assalamualaikum 😊

Cuti dah nak habis *nangis dekat bucu bilik*
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Assalamualaikum!
A super quick update, I typed this entry in my phone's memo, masa tu kat kampung, tak boleh tidur so tengah fikir-fikir, tetiba dapat idea nak buat entry ni. And taip je ikut suka hati, and ni lah hasilnya. This is a reminder for us, including myself too.

1. Know your self value
If someone isn't treating you the way you deserve, leave. Never, ever beg for attention, for love, for anything. You worth more than that. Don't be upset if someone doesn't treat you right, when in fact, you're the one who doesn't treat yourself right. You need to get what you deserve, but never beg. you want love? You want attention? you want happiness? Stop depending on others and start working on them on your own, because you're stronger and definitely capable of achieving those things by yourself.

2. Moving on is hard, but keep going.
It's not gonna be easy. You'll be reminded of the same person everywhere you set your eyes on. It's not gonna take 2 seconds. Just when you think you've forget him(also apply for her), he comes rolling back in your mind. But if you stop trying, you'll never succeed. Instead of forcing yourself to not be reminded of him, just let yourself naturally enjoy what you do daily. Enjoy your time with your friends, enjoy what you eat during lunch, enjoy looking at the cloud during day, enjoy looking at the stars during night. What he did to you doesn't deserve the time you spent mourning. You can't lose to him, and you can't let him win. Not after he hurt you. Remember #1, self worth.

3. Never underestimate the power of du'a.
There's this time when my laptop broke down, it just literally "hang" forever, and I just had to forcefully shut down the laptop by pressing the power button- which is not good for the device. I did try uninstalling unnecessary software and it did work, my laptop works normally after that. For about... two weeks or so. I couldn't uninstall any other software because being an ICT student, I do need to have those softwares installed. I came to a dead end. Until, I decided to try to make du'a after prayer even though it kinda sounds silly. My prayer sounds like... "Ya Allah kau bantulah baiki laptop aku. Kau bantulah hambaMu yang buntu ini" it was short, because I thought it was silly. I didn't use my laptop for a few days. And after that, when I turned it on for the first time after I made that 'silly' du'a and use it, surprisingly, magically, my laptop works just fine! I'm seriously speechless, and words couldn't describe just how thankful I was. Alhamdulillah, no problem on my laptop till today. Now that I've experienced myself, over something that I thought so silly, but decided to still give a try, I learnt that we should never, ever, underestimate the power of du'a, and Allah's bless. He granted whatever He wants to grant. Put your trust on Him. Sometimes, He just want your effort :-)

4. Sadly, love isn't based on effort.
This is suuuuuper personal, but I'm gonna spill it anyway. There was this one boy who had crush on me,  I knew it from his friend, who's also my friend. And this boy wants to y'know, get to know me more blabla and I said to his friend that I'm still too lazy for relationshit thingy but I'm okay if he wants to tegur2 me like reply story or what. Because the boy is super shy and  I lowkey don't even notice his existence until my friend brought him up lol. Then the boy talked to me thru insta, then whatsapp blabla. He was nice, I admit it. He adores me like I'm the most perfect person in this world, but his sweet talking is too much and too cringy tbh. I know he was trying to win me or whatever, but like... 3 days after we started talking(on social media only) he started to treat me like I'm his girlfriend. Like... bruh... chill. I can see his effort, morning text, his caringness(is that a word?), long ass goodnight text, but I feel... uhmm...

At a point I do think I could try to like this boy but since he rushed things so it kinda ruined my mood, and I kept trying to remember all his efforts in hope it will overpower other annoying things he did, but nope. I just couldn't find myself feeling the same.
Ironically, before him, I tried to win this one boy's heart by effort too. I mean I like him first, so I did try to be friend and we kind of did, but that's all. Because he still wasn't over his ex. Then I realized, when your heart is just simply not there, no effort can beat it.

5. Buat nota study awal-awal.
Please la Zahidah. Please.

6. Share the burden with others.
This happened the most recent, when me and my partner, Syaurah had to do our Web Programming project which is a website. I keep on stressing myself to do it alone since I'm afraid Syaurah wouldn't be able to do it, or I might be unsatisfied, or it would take too much time to work on together, so I decided to do most of the work by myself. Well, basically, I did the project by myself. The interface design, the database, the functions-login, register, blabla. I faced with failures and mistakes alone. I watched numerous tutorial videos on youtube. Googled every time I get any error. Had to push the thought to just give up the marks for the projects for so many times already, at one point, I even cried because of the pressure and the frustating errors that I found no working solution!!! Not to mention I worked on the project during my finals exams. It was honestly so hard, I don't want to remember. Syaurah does offers help, she's not a bad friend, but it's just me and my ego, I want to satisfy myself by doing the exact thing in my mind.

On the project presentation day, there's still a lot of things were undone. after taking my last paper, I came back straight to hostel and started doing the project. My eyes hurt so much due to having no sleep, but I still won't give up. Thankfully, I found solution to the problems blabla, and then I gave the easiest task to Syaurah. I ask her to insert pictures to our website. And she gladly helped. She was really excited, I would say, to contribute in the project. I feel so relaxed and even kinda wants to add more to her task, and guess what, right after she was done inserting images for the site, she asked what can she do next, which is the exact thing I want to ask her to do.

We are no superhumans. Share the burden with someone, do not worn your body out just to feed your ego. If your friend didn't know how, help to teach them. Doing things for them will not be any better of a help. Do not push yourself too hard, lean on others too.


That's all I guess. And... Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to my readers!
Assalamualaikum 😊

Also, Al-fatihah kepada phone aku yang dah selamat dikebumikan semalam.
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Kampus Induk UTeM | 20 Feb 2017

Assalamualaikum!
Ahlan wasahlan ya Ramadhan! Alhamdulillah, sempat kita semua yang masih bernafas harini bertemu Ramadhan 2017. Macam mana so far Ramadhan korang? Alhamdulillah tahun ni first week Ramadhan aku dapat berpuasa dekat rumah. Yeayyy *joget joget* Tahun lepas puasa dekat UTeM, masa tu semua baru nak masuk U, matrik, dll. Tak kisah la kat mana pun, yang penting cara kita isi Ramadhan kita tu ye dak? Jangan asyik turuuuuu je (perli diri sendiri hahahah)

Harini dah masuk hari ketujuh dah puasa, dah nak habis 10 hari pertama bulan Ramadhan. Dah terlambat ke nak wish selamat berpuasa? 😂 Tak kira la, nak wish gak. Selamat berpuasa untuk korang yang singgah blog ini secara suka-suka nak baca blog ni, atau suka tuan blog ni (eh?), ataupun yang tak suka tapi tertekan pulak link blog ni hahaha. Semoga Ramadhan kita semua dilimpahi dengan keberkatan dan semua ibadah kita diterima oleh-Nya. Korang ada apape goals yang nak dicapai tak tahun ni? As for me, aku target nak khatam Quran, tapi bukan dari juzu' 1 lah, dari yang aku baca dari sebelum Ramadhan haritu hehe. Doakan aku terus istiqomah dan berjaya capai goal aku 😃

Caya ah dah macam blog dakwah dah hahaha #donedakwah.

Macam yang aku cerita dalam post lepas, dah nak dekat dah final sem 2 aku. 5 haribulan rupanya gais aku exam hahaha. Dan hasilnya, blog aku dah berwajah baru!! Macam takde kena mengena kan? Haa memang pun 😂 Look what I've done instead of studying 😔 Lepas tu ada hati nak emo, stress pulak hahaha. Apa nak jadi ni Zahidah? Tapi pernah dengar tak satu quote ni...

"Time you enjoy wasting is not wasted" - John Lennon
Hahahaha 😆 Lagipun, anggap je lah aku study Web Programming sambil edit layout blog ni hewhew.

Btw, how does the new look looks? Move on dari theme pastel, aku ganti dengan theme Hologram pulak. Tapi dari segi warna, I don't think ada banyak beza pun dengan theme pastel. Niat asalnya nak stick dengan pastel, just nak tukar header macam header sekarang. Masa cari-cari gambar pastel dekat weheartit, jumpa gambar-gambar homographic, so terrrrinsipired dari situ lah. Daripada nak tukar header je, dah terrrrrrrrtukar almost semua benda.

 

Agak annoying gambar aku dekat sidebar tu besar gedabak but I love myself so why not? 😂 And dat quote on the header from zahithegreat aka myself hahahaha k no.

Sebelum aku tukar rupa blog, aku tukar playlist lagu aku kepada playlist K-indie. I really recommend all song on the playlist, melody-wise and lyric-wise. Comel sangat semua lagu tu. Kalau dengar time study pun mood baik je. Tapi kalau korang dengar nasyid ke zikir ke time study janganlah tukar pulak hehe. Ni cadangan je tau 😂

Okay tu je nak cerita kali ni. Eh jap, if aku post review manga ada orang berminat nak baca ke? 👉👈 I've been thinking to review this one manga but tak berkesempatan (ye ke?) but I really do wanna share the manga because it was sooooo good for a manga yang aku just randomly pilih berdasarkan cover and short synopsis hehe. Took me quite some time to move on from it 😅

Tu je kot, kalau korang baca entry ni sebelum sahur, selamat bersahur! Kalau baca dah nak waktu berbuka, selamat berbuka! Selain dari waktu itu, selamat berpuasa dan selamat beramal!

Assalamualaikum 😊

Also, thank you so muchhhh guys yang bagi kata-kata semangat and motivasi on previous entry!! 💗And... look at dat cute airplane when you hover over the blockquote!!!! Comel!!!!!!!!!
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Assalamualaikum!
Lama gila tak update blog, sumpah rindu. Bukan tak nak update, nak. Tapi rasa macam takde yang menarik nak kongsi and kebanyakkan tersadai dalam draft. Hari ni rasa macam rajin sikit (ekceli bosan dan ada sedikit stress), so nak story sikit.

Sedar tak sedar, dah lebih separuh dah bulan May. To update about my student life: 27/5 ni start cuti study week, then 6/6 ni kot start final. Ke 9 haribulan? Entahlah. Hahaha. Tak habis lagi, but to sum up my sem 2 with one word: teruk (yes-with a bold and italic).

Entahlah. at first, it was okay. Programming II time lab okay, time lecture je lost teruk. Walaupun lecturer kata tak kisah pasal student datang kelas ke tak tapi bila datang lambat 5 minit kena marah, okay, I guess that's her style. Hahaha. Web Programming, dengan the first 3-4 weeks kelas mostly cancel, belajar sampai sekarang pun I don't think we've covered the whole syllabus yet, cuma lecturer ajar cukup-cukup setakat mampu buat projek je. Budak seksyen 1 ada belajar java tapi seksyen 2- which is seksyen aku takde usik pun. And baru je tengok past years punya final paper subjek WP, ada je tanya pasal java. Boleh bayang dah masa depan aku masa jawab final nanti.  Fuhh.

Operating System, time lab okay je sebab ikut je apa madam buat dekat depan, but honestly 30% je kot command yang aku ingat dalam kepala. That's probably my fault sebab tak ulangkaji huhu. Discrete Maths, mula-mula the only subjek yang aku function hahaha lepastu keluar segala jenis simbol ha terkeruk-keruk aku nak fahamkan. Then, ada subjek English for Effective Communication. Madam okay, baik je tapi kelas dia membosankan sangat hahaha. Memang ngantuk teruk. Dengan konflik with groupmates nya, ada sorang chinese dalam group aku, ni bukan racist (ke racist?) tapi you know chinese yang tak biasa kawan dengan malay so agak susah nak communicate and for us to work together.... I'll leave it at there lah.

Last but not least, Data Structure. Ni memang lost teruk. Since day-1 of class, memang tak faham satu apa pun 😭 Aku dapat lecturer from Indonesia for this subject, supposedly tak adalah susah sangat nak faham language beliau kan, sebab ala Indon je pun bukan Zimbabwe. Tapi... aku tak tahu nak describe macam mana, tapi language beliau tu memang kalau dengar memang blur weh apa beliau cakap. Awkward pulak guna beliau, tapi aku still have respect for him as a lecturer. Lagipun beliau baik je. Aku bukan kutuk membenci pun ni. Aku seriously tak pernah lost the whole subject, sepanjang seumur hidup aku belajar. Bukan nak bangga, tapi sebodoh-bodoh aku dalam addmaths, ada lah jugak aku berjaya tangkap. Bebal-bebal aku, boleh lah lagi survive buat latihan calculus sendiri. Tapi data struct ni..... Nak nangis aku cerita ni.

I didn't feel it before, but now aku tengah duduk berdua je dengan Iffah dalam bilik, dua-dua senyap menghadap laptop, aku baru lepas broken (sikit) pasal crush-crush lama yang dah bahagia(lol), lepastu baru nak study tapi tengok soalan final past years susah nak mati and I JUST REALIZED THAT I CANNOT ANSWER THE QUESTIONS KALAU TAK STUDY, LIKE FAHAM TAK MACAM TAKDE SATU APA PUN DALAM KEPALA OTAK NI

I'm stress.

Oh ya, campur homesick lagi. Nak nangis.

More stress when I know that walaupun aku kata lecturer itu, lecturer ini, semuanya salah aku jugak sebab malas study, malas tanya, malas jumpa lecturer, malas tanya kawan, pergi kelas pun kadang-kadang malas. Haih. Apa nak jadi ni???

Please pray for me guys. Bagi kata-kata semangat sikit ke, share experience ke.

Oh satu lagi, remember back then when I was confused about my pointer for last sem? Haa, nak cerita, actually my GPA tak dean list pun, 3.3 something gitu je. My CGPA 3.5 something. So haritu dalam kelas, one of my classmates pergi mintak sign student yang dapat dekan and of course I wasn't included. Idk before tapi dean list ni ikut GPA eh? So bila that happened, I was honestly so heartbroken, and rasa macam ego dicakar-cakar dan tercalar. Rasa down jugaklah masa tu, and every time terfikir balik.

Sekali lagi, pray for me guys. Semoga dapat kutip sisa-sisa semangat yang ada and fight for final.

Thank you for reading this emo entry hahaha.
Bye, Assalamualaikum 😊

Broken jugak sebab sayat.me saya tak mendapat sambutan lollll. Ask.fm is the best!!!


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Assalamualaikum!
Raya is just a few months away but some of us have already started thinking about what they would wear, the theme colour and from which designer or boutique they would want to shop. No, it is not too early to plan because as closer as it gets to Raya, all the best deals or clothing will be snatched away. Not only that, some tailors and designers slots for making your ensemble are filling up fast even before the fasting month even begins. However, do you know what are the muslim wear trends for Raya this year? You will definitely want to flaunt something in trend for the special celebration. So here are some trend predictions this year.      

1. Florals


Florals are seen to be popular this year and it is a pattern that will never go out of style. You can always rock florals even as years pass as it exudes your feminine side to others with ease. Whether you choose the classic baju kurung or a fancier version of traditional wear, it absolutely has that romantic charm touch.

2. Bell Sleeves




Bell sleeves are also becoming a favourite trend this year and it is not impossible that designers will incorporate them into their fashion collection for Raya. The flowy design of the sleeves gives women that elegant yet sophisticated persona. Choose a flowy bell sleeve modern kurung or kebaya to show off for Eid Day.

3. Dark Tones



Out with the pastels and in with dark tones for this coming Raya. For the ladies who are looking to achieve a mature appearance for Eid Day this year, dark tones will be the perfect choice of ensemble. Pick your favourite muslimah clothing that you want to flaunt for Raya and match the dark tones with the right shoes or accessories. 

That's all I'm sharing for this time, till we meet again on new post!
Assalamualaikum 😊
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[31] And Paradise will be brought near to the righteous, not far  
[32] (It will be said), "This is what you were promised - for every returner (to Allah ) and keeper (of His covenant)
[33] Who feared the Most Merciful unseen and came with a heart returning (in repentance).
[34] Enter it in peace. This is the Day of Eternity."
[35] They will have whatever they wish therein, and with Us is more.

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Assalamualaikum!
Ni entry ringkas dan pendek je, cuma nak share "hadiah" yang aku dapat dari kak Syida.

Cerita dia kak Syida tengah exam sekarang, so dia tak sempat nak datang sharing dekat Lestari. Jadi dia pass "hadiah" ni berserta coklat Cloud 9 dengan lolipop Chupa Chups dekat kak Syira. Mula-mula aku ambik gambar coklat je then post dekat story ig, terharu lah kan dia ingat jugak aku walaupun tengah sibuk nak exam. Lepas tu pagi tadi, takdelah pagi mana sebenarnya, teringat pulak notes dia bagi sekali dengan coklat tu. Kertas dalam gambar tu lah. Aku pun ambik tafsir atas rak. Bukak, dan baca terjemahan.

Perasaan aku bila baca "hadiah" tu?

Tahu tak perasaan bila kau baca satu buku, or novel, or komik, apape bahan bacaanlah, yang bila sampai chapter last, ayat last, yang menunjukkan cerita yang kau baca dari a-z tu, pengakhirannya ialah sebuah 'happy ending'?

Macam tu lah aku rasa.

Inilah happy ending yang kita semua patut harapkan, yang kita semua mesti dapatkan.

Enter it in peace. This is the Day of Eternity.

They will have whatever they wish therein, 

and with Us is more.

InsyaAllah, amiin.

Assalamualaikum 😊

Alhamdulillah for the constant reminder. 
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Kolej Kediaman Lestari, UTeM | 26 Februari 2017


Assalamualaikum!
Sekejaaaaap je dah bulan Mac dah. SERIOUSLY? Apa je aku buat sepanjang dah 3 bulan 2017 ni? Rasa macam tak produktif lansung hahahaha.

Okay actually dah berhari dah nak post pasal ni, tapi hehe biasalah bila dah bukak laptop ni banyak melencong ke lain huhuhu. So akhirnya, seminggu kemudian baru nak post. Hari Ahad minggu lepas, aka 26 Februari 2017, aku tinggal berdua je dengan Syaurah (aka Shawty), Ipah keluar dengan kawan dia, Jia dengan Shahadah balik. So kitorang ni yang bangun tidur memang lambat gila, and bangun-bangun je, lapar... Nasib baik Jia tinggal kereta dia sebab dia balik rumah ayah dia yang ambik. So dia benarkan kitorang guna kereta dia untuk terus survive dalam kehidupan (lol). 

Macam biasa, isu paling rumit sekali dalam dunia ni ialah "Nak makan mana?" 😂 Sebab bila weekend kedai fav kitorang, Muo Station dengan Ayam Penyet Rasa Jawa tutup. Dah lah kitorang berdua ni bukan orang Melaka. So kitorang jalaaaan je dulu tanpa tahu arah tuju. Call Ipah, dia ajak makan KFC, tapi rasa macam tak puas nak makan KFC untuk lunch. So Shawty jalaaaan lagi, last-last dia kata nak makan nasi ayam. Aku pun google kedai nasi ayam terdekat, so kitorang pergi restoran Nasi Ayam S.P.E.C.I.A.L (dalam google memang camni nama dia hahaha). Tak sempat nak ambik gambar bagai sebab terlampau lapar, tapi kalau siapa nak makan nasi ayam boleh lah google kedai ni okay! Sedap and harga pun berpatutan untuk student yang tengah tunggu PTPTN masuk macam kami haritu huhu.

Lepastu, dah kenyang makan nasi ayam ni, Shawty cadangkan makan dessert pulekk. Dia craving waffle sedap-sedap tu. Aku ikutkan aje sebab dia driver kan, lagipun tak pernah lagi aku pergi food hunting dekat cafe-cafe hipstur dekat Melaka ni. So sekali lagi dengan bantuan google, kitorang decide untuk pergi Brats & Uni Cafe dekat Bukit Beruang, Melaka. (Actually panjang lagi cerita cari and pilih cafe ni tapi takyah la cerita hahahaha)

Brats & Uni cafe ni lokasi dia dekat-dekat dengan MMU. Dekat tepi jalan je, so kalau tak familiar area Bukit Beruang tu kena rajin-rajin lah tengok ke tepi ya. Sebaris dengan banyak lagi cafe, ada Coffeeology, Friends Talk cafe, Tappers, dll. Signboard Brats & Uni ni simple je kalau nak dibandingkan dengan yang lain, tapi.... korang kena masuk dalam dulu baru tahu macam mana.

Interior design Brats & Uni ni honestly sangat!!! menarik, sebab ada variety tempat duduk yang korang boleh pilih ikut suka nak duduk kat mana. Ada yang sofa, ada yang kerusi cam untuk family, ada tempat tinggi, rendah, dekat luar and dekat dalam. Kira kalau pergi banyak kali tu, boleh lah try setiap jenis kerusi and meja tu hahaha. Ni, gambar-gambar yang sempat di-snap macam orang jakun kurkur.





Tengok meja ni jadi homesick pulak sebab teringat meja makan kat rumah lolol



Dekat sini, harga dia nak kata murah, tak jugak, mahal sangat pun, tak jugak. Standard cafe hipster lah. Takdelah harga tak logik ke di luar kotak pemikiran manusia ke, tak adalah sampai macam tu. Aku dengan Shawty order Sinful Choc Nutella Milkshake. Nama pun dah macam berdosa kan? Hahaha. Jap jap nak upload gambar, baru rasa berdosa sebab mampu share gambar je dengan korang 😝


Tadaaaa! Niiii sumpah puas gila kalau korang jenis yang suka benda manis-manis. Dengan cuaca masa tu panas, lepastu dapat pulak Sinful Choc Nutella Milkshake ni. perghhh terliur aku sambil menaip ni 😂 Ada cookie besar, ada rocky ke pocky ntah 4 batang, pastu tengok biskut teddy tu bergayut kat cawan tu awww comel gila. Kitorang order satu je sebab dah kenyang kan, ni pun untuk memuaskan nafsu je hahaha. Walaupun order satu, tapi straw dengan sudu dapat dua hehe mekasih abang cafe sebab memahami lol. Harga dia... satu cawan ni RM 14.90. Ni memang betul-betul rasa berdosa dengan duit PTPTN tak masuk laginya 😂

Milkshake ni memang sangat manis, so jangan gatal order sorang satu kalau rasa tak minat chocolate/benda manis atau dah kenyang, untuk mengelakkan pembaziran. Selain benda manis-manis, ada jugak makanan lain yang korang boleh order so kalau nak breakfast ke lunch ke dinner kat sini pun boleh.


Ni saje nak share, air masak memang dia bagi free, tapi rasa kelakar tengok botol dia macam botol acid dalam makmal kimia dulu 😂 Aku dah try, Alhamdulillah memang air masak, bukan acid okay so korang boleh minum.

Selain interior design dengan dessert & foods dekat sini, the cafe itself memang best. Sebab tenang sangat, kalau nak study ke buat kerja ke memang sesuai sangat lah. Wifi pun ada dekat sini. Satu lagi, kalau nak ambik gambar lawa-lawa fefeeling hispter pun lagilah tersangat okay 👌

Tu je rasanya pasal Brats & Uni cafe. Nanti kalau ada rezeki, bila aku pergi cafe lain, aku story lagi okay. Last but not least...


Haruslahhh belanja muka kami hahaha. 
Assalamualaikum 😊

B.A.P, GOT7 comeback, Every DAY6 March, drama The Lover and His Liar-- R.I.P study 😫
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Assalamualaikum gais!!
A quick update, bukak blog tadi and nampak Fieona and Tashira tag untuk join GA. Biasanya fitrah seorang Zahi ni malas (hehehe) tapi sebab tengok hadiah GA ni comel sangat!!!!!! so Zahi join 😁

Syarat dia semua simple, so siapa nak join boleh klik gambar di atas eh ;)

Blogger yang aku nak tag ialah:
Fairuz AqilahZakira AfinaHazrina Halim
Done! 
Assalamualaikum 😊





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16 Feb 2017


Assalamualaikum!
Kali ni, nak post something lain  sikit dari beshe beshe. Iftar Jam'ie ni ialah satu term  untuk berbuka puasa beramai-ramai. Ceritanya, kak Syida ajak berbuka puasa dengan dia sekali, tapi aku tak boleh puasa pun, segan lah jugak kan. Tapi dia kata takpe, anggap je lah macam dinner sama-sama. Aku pun okay je lah, sebab aku tahu, biasanya bukan setakat makan, tapi ada bonus yang lagi mahal dari makan tu.

So dalam pukul 6:45 tu kak Syida sampai Lestari (kolej kediaman aku) dengan ada dua org lagi sistur, Ila dengan Ina nama dia. Aku tak kenal sebab diorang berdua student degree fakulti lain, dan kalau fakulti aku pun memang fitrah seorang Zahidah ni akan tak kenal sebab jenis susah nak ingat muka dengan nama orang 😅 Sampai rumah kak Syida, ramai lagi ada dekat situ, so kami berkenal-kenalan lah.

Masuk waktu maghrib, makan!! Uniknya, kak Syida and the gang (housemates dia) kalau buat makan-makan dekat rumah dia ni memang akan hidangkan nasi dengan lauk selonggok atas dulang, makan lah 4-5 orang dari dulang yang sama. Nak mengeratkan silaturrahim kot hahaha. Tapi okay je, seronoklah jugak sebab bukan hari-hari makan dalam dulang kan? Menu hari tu nasi putih, ayam masak kurma, sayur kubis goreng dengan telur dadar. Makan-makan, then solat maghrib, baru lah masuk part bonus macam yang aku sebut awal tadi.

Bonus tersebut ialah sharing.

Sharing ni macam usrah lah, tapi taknak nama skema katanya (lol), so kami panggil sharing. Tak kisahlah kan nama apa pun, yang penting matlamatnya sama dan sampai.

Aku tak kira exactly ada berapa orang, lebih kurang 20 kot? Kitorang semua duduk satu bulatan dalam bilik tu. Before start sharing tu, ada main satu game ni, macam music box eh nama dia? Yang pass-pass kotak then music berhenti dekat someone, and someone tu kena jawab soalan. Macam tu lah. Bila kotak berhenti, firstly kena perkenalkan orang di sebelah kanan, then baru ambik soalan dalam kotak tu, and kena jawab berdasarkan orang di sebelah kiri. Contohnya soalan "Apa makanan kegemarannya?" and kita tekalah apa orang sebelah kiri kita suka makan. Kalau betul, dapatlah hadiah. Gitewww. Memandangkan kebanyakkan yang dalam bilik tu baru jumpa harini, so bestlah dapat kenal each other, and kelakarlah bila ada yang dah kenal pun tak dapat jawab soalan tu.

So... apa pointnya game ni?

Memula aku fikir gak, sebab biasanya lepas solat terus masuk sesi tazkirah. Ni ada main game pulak. Then, kak Syida terangkan. Point game ni bukan setakat suka-suka nak kenal-kenal, dapat hadiah, tapi nak highlight the point yang tak kiralah berapa lama pun kita kenal orang-orang di sekeliling kita ni, masih banyak benda yang kita tak tahu pasal diorang. Kita cuma tahu apa yang dia bagitahu kita. Contohnya, kita tak tahu masalah yang dia sorok dari kita, dll. Tapi, kita ada Allah swt yang tahu semua tentang kita, walaupun kita tak bagitahu. Dia tahu semua yang kita rasa, yang kita sorok dari orang lain, semua dia tahu.

Itu, satu. Lepastu, barulah mula sesi sharing yang sebenarnya, iaitu tajuk pasal syurga. Nak taip panjang-panjang pasal semua, aku pun tak berapa ingat, tapi ada satu soalan dari sorang sistur ni, nama dia Najiha, yang macam simple, tapi aku tak dapat nak figure out jawapan dia.

"Kan dekat syurga nanti apa kita nak, kita boleh dapat kan? Habis tu apa beza 7 peringkat syurga tu?"

And jawapan dia, pada aku sangatttttt menarik, sebab tu aku rasa nak share dekat blog ni.

Macam yang semua tahu, syurga ada 7 peringkat, and yang paling tinggi sekali namanya syurga Firdaus. Syurga Firdaus tu paling tinggi, dan jugak paling dekat dengan arasy Allah, sekali gus, paling dekat dengan Allah. Lepastu, kalau baca Quran, banyak ditekankan pasal sungai  bila describe pasal syurga. Anologinya, kalau pergi mandi air terjun, kalau kita pergi bahagian atas, kan tak ramai yang dah usik air tu, tapi kalau kita pergi dekat bawah, kita dapat air yang mengalir dari atas, yang dah ada orang mandi-mandi lah kan (tak campur lagi yang kencing masa mandi tu hahahaha). Jadi nak kata, bila kita dekat syurga Firdaus, air sungai yang mengalir tu datangnya direct dari Arasy Allah. Meanwhile, yang di syurga lebih bawah pula air sungai yang dah diusik oleh penghuni syurga tingkat yang lebih tinggi. Macam tu lah analoginya.

Lepastu, penghuni syurga tertinggi iaitu syurga Firdaus tadi tu, dapat jenguk dan turun, macam jalan-jalan lah dekat syurga di bawah, tapi, penghuni syurga yang dekat bawah takkan dapat naik dan tengok macam mana rupa syurga yang lebih tinggi tingkatnya. Analoginya, kalau yang mampu menginap dekat hotel 5 bintang, mestilah mampu nak menginap hotel 2 bintang. Tapi yang mampu hotel 2 bintang, takkan dapat nikmat yang sama macam duduk hotel 5 bintang.

Jadi, kita sebagai hamba ni, bila berdoa, doalah agar kita ditempatkan di syurga Firdaus.

Sorry kalau cara aku cerita jadi tak menarik hahahahaha aku memang sumpah fail bab-bab bercerita ni 😂 Ini apa yang aku dapat dari sharing semalam, kalau ada salah tolong betulkan ya 😀

Semoga kita semua lebih bersemangat mengejar syurga!

Assalamualaikum 😊

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Seoul Garden, Megamall, Kuantan | 01 Feb 2017

Assalamualaikum!!
Setelah berhari-hari pasang niat nak share cerita, hari ni baru betul-betul determined nak post jugak pasal ni. Benda normal lah tu, nak update, isi title je, pastu hilang mood. Save. Dua hari kemudian, nak update, upload gambar, pastu tetiba rasa nak main dress-up game. Save. Dua hari kemudian, nak update, barulah start menaip dengan Assalamualaikum dan intro ntah pape yang korang baru je lepas baca ni 😅

Semoga post ini tak terkubur dalam draft. Amiin.

Sebelum kita go dengan lebih jauh,  apa itu Rodong? Rodong ni loghat(?) orang Pahang yang bermaksud secara simplenya, kengkawan. Actually aku dengan kawan-kawan aku ni bagi nama squad kitorang RS-Radiant Sista lah kononnya. Tapi ada sorang kawan kitorang ni, Fakhrul, panggil kitorang Rodong Sekalian, dan akhirnya lekatlah nama tu. Sampai sekarang kitorang gelarkan diri kitorang Rodong je. 

Okay, back to the story, setelah lebih kurang sebulan aku cuti sem, dua minggu sebelum cuti nak habis baru dapat lepak dan hang-out dengan Rodong Sekalianku sebab cuti aku tak sama dengan diorang. Diorang dah sem 2, aku baru cuti sem 1. Alhamdulillah, dengan izin dan limpah kurnia-Nya, dapatlah kami berkumpul pada suatu hari Rabu yang indah bersamaan dengan 1 Ferbruari 2017. Ada gaya pengacara majlis masa program sekolah tak? hahaha. Disebabkan diorang cuti mid sem seminggu maka dapatlah kitorang jumpa. Lama tau tak jumpa, last jumpa Naz dengan Syifa masa ambik result SPM. Kau ghaseeee? Memang rindu lah cerita dia!

So, memula kitorang plan nak pergi bandar naik rapid a.k.a kenderaan rasmi Rodong 😂 Tapi pagi tu, Naz kata dia pergi naik kereta dengan kakak dia and agak-agak muat tak nak sumbat kitorang 6 orang, termasuk kakak dia 7 orang dalam satu kereta Persona kalau tak silap. Kalau ikut logik akalnya memang tak muatlah, dua orang duduk depan, 5 orang dewasa duduk belakang. Nak kata semua badan kecik-kecik pun tak jugak, tapi, kemonlah, ni Rodong kot. Setakat lipat-lipat badan, selit-selit member celah ketiak ni perkara biasa, yang paling penting, nak naik kereta. Asal naik kereta, kuak lentang dalam kereta pun kami sanggup.

Maka pergilah kami ke bandar naik kereta kakak Naz, dalam keadaan yang kalau sardin dalam tin tengok, dia bersyukur sebab dia dapat duduk dalam tin.

Sampai je Megamall, keluar fulus dulu, then baru pi Seoul Garden. Niatnya nak makan sambil borak lah. Taknak tengok wayang, karok dan sebagainya sebab nanti kurang bercakap dengan each other. Kena paham, bila aku dah start menaip niatnya  tu, maknanya benda tu hanya tinggal sekadar niat. Akhirnya kitorang lebih fokus makan daripada berborak 😂 Kes kebulur, konon simpan perut sebab ye lah, Seoul Garden kan, takkan bayar mahal-mahal nak makan dua suap je sebab dah kenyang. Dekat SG, 50% makan, 30% borak, 10% selfie + main IG Live, 10% kira duit. Kesnya hakak akauntan kita, Elly tersilap kira so duit tak cukup nak bagi balance untuk semua org. Lama gak ah tunggu krisis kewangan rodong tu selesai, sampai daripada dah kenyang, aku bukak balik steamboat tu sebab lapar semula, pening kira duit (walaupun aku tengok je, Elly yang kira 😝)

Then dekat Megamall kitorang pergi Mr. DIY, Popular, jalan-jalan window shopping sambil borak-borak. Sementara kitorang spend time together gether catching up tu, kakak Naz pergi tengok wayang sesorang #lifegoals.

Sangkaya, East Coast Mall | 01 Feb 2017

Lepastu, kitorang berhimpit lagi sekali, tapi kali ni rasa macam makin sempit, sebab baru lepas makan agaknya 😂 Gerak pergi ECM, tak jauh mana pun haa, 5 minit je dari Megamall tu. Dekat ECM ni kitorang tak buat apa sangat, pusing-pusing, singgah Sangkaya jap sebab Tika nak makan eskem. Ni memang betul Tika je yang makan, nampak tak dalam gambar tu ada satu je mangkuk aiskrim Sangkaya nya? Padahal bila masuk kemain meriah tarik-tarik kerusi nak duduk satu meja kecik tu 6 orang, sekali yang makannya sorang je. Bukan taknak aiskrim, gila ke Zahi taknak makan aiskrim?!?!!?! Masalahnya ialah, aiskrim tu Sangkaya, aku ni pulak Sangmiskin. Huhuhuhu. Target tahun ni nak start menabung, lagipun baru je lagi makan aiskrim dekat SG, maka, berjayalah kawal sikit nafsu tu. 

Lek je, apa guna ada kawan kalau tak share makanan dengan kita kan? So aku pun makan aiskrim Tika 3-4 sudu. Kuikui. Mekasih Tika 💕

Lepastu, hmm pergi Daiso, jalan-jalan, pusing-pusing cuci mata, takdelah ramai sangat orang sebab hari Rabu kan, jeling-jeling je baju dengan kasut lawa-lawa, nak beli, tak mampu. Aku rasa sejak aku jadi student ni aku kedekut bab-bab baju, kasut sebab aku lebih pentingkan duit makan. Makan > being pretty. Jadi jangan tanya kenapa kalau aku masih single di tahun-tahun akan datang.

Then, berhimpit lagi sekali, and gerak balik rumah. Dalam kereta sempat lagi borak, membahan each other. Rindu semua tu. Dulu hari-hari jumpa, tu lah rutinnya. Bahan each other, gaduh-gaduh manja, ada gak gaduh-gaduh tak berapa nak manja, tapi biasalah, nama pun friendship. Sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit, ini kan pula pipi. Pastu jadi ulser. Kerana ulser sebintik, rosak mood sebelanga. Ok takde kaitan please faham dah pukul 1 pagi ni masa aku menaip. Apapepun, gaduh-gaduh tu yang buat friendship ni stronger 💪 Kalau saya ada gurau-gurau kasar, jangan ambil hati ya, gurau je semua tu. Hehehehehe.

Alhamdulillah, dapat lepas rindu dengan Rodong walaupun tak puas. Ya lah, punya lama tak jumpa, mana boleh habis rindu dalam sehari tu je 😩 Tetiba rasa rindu balik dekat Rodong. Huwaaaa. Dahlah aku ni tercampak jauh di Melaka. Sobs. Apapepun, untuk rodong, thank you for another precious memory together. Study elok-elok, jangan have fun sangat tanpa saya. Huhuhu. 6 years and counting? 😘

Tu je untuk kali ni, such a long entry, though. Thank you for reading! 
Assalamualaikum 😊

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