Universiti Malaysia Pahang | 24 November 2019

Rasa macam dewasa lah post macam ni

Mayang Sari Express, Melaka-KL | 5 Aug 2019

Did I mention I stanned 2-3 new Kpop groups during this break? ha ha

Kompleks Sukan, UTeM, Melaka | 27 April 2018

Assalamualaikum!
Is it too late to wish Happy Fasting to everyone? Hehehe selamat berpuasa semua!! May our Ramadhan this year is filled with barakah and may we all get to use this chance to strengthen our iman and stay istiqamah to do the ibadah. Amiin!!

       I've been wanting to write on this topic for quite a few times, but my laziness got in between so,,,, yeah hahaha. What makes me want to write on this topic again is because recently UPU result for SPM leavers came out, and I've been seeing tweets regarding the results they get- which, reminds me of this repetitive story on how I ended up taking Diploma in ICT in UTeM.

       I told this story to basically everyone close to me. This course is my 11th choice out of 12 given. Itu pun, aku actually letak ICT ni sebab ni macam course yang aku boleh bawak kot compared to science-related course like engineering, etc although I was a science stream student. My original ambition was to be an English teacher as I love the subject and my sister is an English teacher too so watching her kinda inspire me. But then last minute suddenly I nak jadi cikgu tadika. I pun tak tahu kenapa 😂 So basically, I was contemplating between those two lah. So my UPU application focused on those two, and selebihnya yang nak isi ruang-ruang kosong tu, I filled in with ICT-related course. Oh, ada jugak selit course masscomm for fun, went to the interview but I didn't do well so I didn't put my hope high. Although I am very interested to pursue in masscomm just because the campus is in Melaka.

       Even with no high hope, I did think of the possibility of me passing that interview kan so I sukalah kalau dapat belajar dekat Melaka sebab I lived in Johor, born there, grow up there, until I was 14 before I moved to Kuantan. My point is, while I'm in Johor, my family always go to Melaka so I thought that it would be nostalgic to go back to Melaka to study. Long story short, when the UPU result came out, I was so confused because I don't even remember applying for Diploma in ICT?!?!?! And then it hits me, "Oh, ni course aku letak nak isi tempat kosong tu,". But I think I am not as disappointed considering the fact that being a teacher is the only profession I ever dreamed of when I was 15-17 years old. I'm more 'okay' than I thought with what I get. Turns out there's a lot of my classmate who didn't even get any offer for UPU so I'm even more thankful to get one. Although I have no idea where this course will take me in the future, I'm happy with the fact that it's in Melaka!

       3 years of diploma, it wasn't my best performance I would say. I think I can do better if I try harder, but, it was bearable and survivable, thanks to my family and friends. And along the way of learning a course I truly had no pure intention of getting accepted, along the way of learning the "fill-in-the-UPU-blank" course, I found what I truly want to do for life.

       I've always known this- I am a bad teacher. I can't express what I understand in a way that can help others to understand. Even in high school, I'm not the kind of student that you can refer to or ask questions because I honestly, don't know. I think I understand, but I'm always not sure enough to teach others. But by studying before exam, I ended up scoring my exam fairly well. I am aware at the fact that I can't teach for anyone's sake, but I was in denial. Because at that time I only see 'teacher' as my ambition. My world at that time was so so small, so I was stuck there. And somehow, I also realize that I'm bad with kids. I, honestly, only like kind kids hahaha. I don't like the annoying ones. I'm quite hot-tempered too. So, along the 3 years of learning this leftover course, along the 3 years of finding what I think I have passion in, I realize that I am truly not made for my previous ambitions.

        Now, here is where the dependence part comes on. That was a looong intro, right? Hahahaha. So as I've mention a looot of time in my previous post, I decided to take a break after diploma and apply for UPU instead for degree. It's a lie if I say I don't feel anything seeing my friends and batchmates pursuing for their degree already. Okay, a little promo for my boys, there's 2 songs that give me a lot of strength- My Pace and Grow Up by Stray Kids. Do check them out on Youtube hehehehe. Check the lyrics, it fits well with my concern so I really relate a lot to it. Moving on, I filled in the UPU application with what I want to pursue, all of them are ICT-related. 18 years-old me would be shook if she know this hahahaha. I do stress and think a lot in choosing the option but this time I'm more concerned on the location instead. Either close to home or close to my other friends 😂 I prioritize home though because I only have one option for that. Anyways, after sending the application, I feel at ease. I don't have an exact wish on my UPU result, I just hope I get one, anywhere, I don't feel like it matters anymore.

Because I've seen it- I've seen how God gives me the 11th choice out of 12 that I had, and that choice ended up making me discover myself. Makes me realizes that what you want doesn't necessarily be the best for you, and what you don't want doesn't necessarily mean it's bad for you. I've seen how God gives me what the best for me, so this time, too, I'll depend on Him. I know, He knows the best.

       The dependence leads to the sense of security. Even if didn't get my first choice or any choice at all, I know, I'm sure, I believe, I will find the hikmah sooner or later. Cliche, but there's always a reason behind why something happen. I'm not saying I'm always happy during my 3 years of diploma. I had my fair share of breakdowns too, especially the last two semesters. So what I mean by the best is not the-always-sunshine-and-rainbow kind of best, it's the I-went-through-a-lot-and-from-it-I-also-learnt-a-lot kind of best. So, whatever you're going through in life, believe me, you will be thankful of it, sooner or later.

So that's all I guess. Assalamualaikum 😊

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” (QS. Al Baqarah: 216)

Pangsapuri Sri Utama, MITC, Melaka | 5 Januari 2019

Assalamualaikum!
First post for 2019! Finally, after such a long time I am contemplating on what to post, put a few unfinished ones to draft, akhirnya, macam biasalah, yang tak plan tu jugaklah yang bergerak.

       2019. How young are you guys this year? I'm 21 this year. Wow dah lebih dua dekad hidup hahaha. Alhamdulillah. To be honest, since I become a university student, new years no longer give this special feeling I always feel when I was in school. Mostly because every year end and new year beginning is final exam season. So, tengah sibuk-sibuk nak exam tu anda rasa saya ada masa nak sambut tahun baru? Oh, which reminds me that when the clock strikes 00:00 on the 1st January 2019, my friends and I tengah dalam kereta nak drive thru McD hahaha. Our 2019's first meal 😂 And tengok bunga api dari dalam kereta je, ada la orang dekat dataran(?) dekat-dekat MITC tu pasang bunga api. Lepastu balik rumah macam tak ada apa-apa berlaku. Teruskan kehidupan makan tengah malam macam biasa.

       Azam pun, dah lama dah takde. Dah tahu dah bukan tercapai pun hahaha lagi-lagi azam nak kurangkan mencarut 😂 But this year, since dah umur doplohsatu kan, kenalah matang sikit. So I listed myself a few new year resolution and target.

Dan Zahidah masih lagi dengan bahasa rojaknya. Korang sabar je lah eh?

MITC, Melaka | 10 Jun 2017

Why must I decide about tomorrow, today?
How should I know what tomorrow will bring?
My path and dreams are fading
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Again today, there are questions that I don't know the answer
I'm trying to answer, but I'm not confident
Is it this way, or is it that way?
I'm slowly becoming afraid of my decision
Tomorrow, Today- JJ Project

The Heights Residence, Melaka | 5 April 2018

Assalamualaikum!
Hi guys, as I mentioned in my previous, previous post, I'm starting my Industrial Training atau bahasa kampungnya Latihan Industri atau bahasa pemalasnya, LI, so I'm here to share how it has been going so far.

       Some of you guys might know, or might not know that I'm a Diploma student in course ICT, but I undergo my LI at SMK Pelabuhan, Kuantan. Yes, a school. While orang lain sibuk cari company, school has always been in my first target, and is the first number I gave a call. The reason is, first, sebab I memang tahu sekolah ni pernah ambil student IT untuk LI. Second, my sister is a teacher here- bukan nak pakai cable eh- tapi sebab senang nak commute. Third, I've always want to be a teacher, tapi tak kesampaian. Tak adalah expect diri ini nak mengajar pun, cuma I just want to experience working environment dekat sekolah, dengan cikgu-cikgu, and students. So, yes, sekolah it is. SMKP pun terima aku dengan hati terbuka, lagilah aku terus malas nak cari tempat lain.

So this is my view everyday and yes, that's twitter in the background ahshsajja

       I'm placed at the school's computer lab which I loike very the muchi because aircond!! Although now my skin is getting dryer that it already is blergh. Tapi okaylah at least tak panas peluh lecak-lecak kan hahaha.  My working scope is not that heavy, I believe. Just adalah design sikit-sikit, tolong student or cikgu bila ada problem, hias-hias makmal sikit-sikit. And disebabkan sekolah ni tak cukup cikgu camtu, so ada jugak dapat relief kelas hahahaha I FEEL SO CIKGU TAHU TAK AKSKSKSK. Especially bila the students call me cikgu. Kalau ikutkan, aku sedar diri je aku ni tak layak dipanggil cikgu, like I don't have the qualification pun okay. But my boss, tuan pengetua bagi je the students call me cikgu so we still have boundaries, because, umur tak jauh beza pun haa aku ni pangkat kakak-kakak je dengan diorang. So my boss doesn't want them to become disrespectful la gitu.

With students present in the lab

       Socializing was... uh, so-so. I'm a socially awkward person, it's really hard for me to make new friends tbh, especially in this working environment where I'm the youngest here, and everyone is a teacher, and much older so I'm more to scared I'd done something rude or disrespectful to them. Cuma, things are a little okay because everyone already know me as 'Adik Izati'- which is my sister. Btw, my sister moved to other school just before I started my LI :-----) It does bring me somewhat a pressure though because of course, people will somehow compare, and my sister and I are completely different in personalities, physically we're pretty much similar so everyone's like "muka sama je dia dengan Izati" hahahaha. Personality-wise, I'm less patient than her, so kalau ada yang cari pasal tu firstly memang muka aku obvious gilalah bila annoyed. But so far, ada satu cikgu and satu kelas ni je betul-betul get on my nerve 😤

I think that's all for now? I think I'll update more about my whole experience once my LI is over, that, if I have time to sit and write because after LI terus start new sem a.k.a my last semester for diploma!

Bye and Assalamualaikum 😊

Oh, my blog has new look! It's not completely done yet but what do you think?

Teluk Chempedak, Kuantan, Pahang | 28 April 2018

Selamat berpuasa fellow readers 💜

Bukit Kepong, Johor | 23 Mac 2018

Recent obsession: Syafiq Kyle

Throwback to 1/127276332989 times we went drive-thru-ing mcD

#NEVERSAYGOODBYE2NE1 😔

Assalamualaikum and hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Finally after 16526388 years i'm baaaaaack. ceh. Back from where exactly? Actually tak kemana pun ha ada yo berkeliaran di semua social media tapi ho lah, takde semangat dan motivasi nak update blog. Every time dah tulis satu post selalu sangat tak habis dan akhirnya berdebu dalam draft.

Blogger dah ada emoji ohemjiiii hahaha somel je.

So, last post aku pasal last gathering dengan classmates hahahahhaa bapak ah lapuk gila cerita. Lepas masuk u terus takde update pape mesti korang ingat university life aku bosan kan :'( u wish. macam-macam jadi actually tapi tak terkeluar menjadi cerita ok ayat skema awkward gila ni hmm.

Basically, U life was great. Jumpa kawan yang sekepala even though awal-awal dulu ada drama sikit tapi the true ones stay till the end. cewah. Masuk UTeM, you won't start sem 1 terus macam universiti lain- except for UMP, UTHM and others yg idk, kena start dengan sem khas or aku panggil sem kosong hahahah. Sem 0 belajar 3 subjek je untuk 3 bulan, kiranya sem ni macam preparation la untuk the real university life. Boleh la biasakan diri masa sem 0 ni. Ada U yang ada sem khas ni belajar basic subject course yang kau ambik tapi untuk aku kitorang belajar subjek wajib universiti yg takde kena mengena dengan course aku tapi still wajib amik so nanti degree boleh transfer kredit je. Faham? Tak faham takpe, saje nak cerita hahaha.

Then blaja blaja blaja final cuti sem sebulan, baru la masuk sem 1-

-when mostly orang lain dah final sem 1 tak pun dah cuti sem 😪

Start sem 1, baru lah belajar subject yang ada kena mengena dengan course aku. Aku ambik diploma IT(DIT) so jadi pakar IT lah hendaknya one day. /pakar IT pakar ekonomi jaguh sukan dan juga jutawaaaan playing in the background/ Dah semestinya aku takde cerita yang DIT @ UTeM ni pilihan ke 11 daripada 12 dalam UPU aku hahahaha. Tapi ni lah rezeki aku so kita ikut flow je lah kan. As long as not engineering, nek tobat dah nak belajar sains tak kira lah fizik ke kimia ke biologos nek tobattttttttt.

Tapi terlupa nak letak addmath dalam list tobat tu maka-

-huhuhu yo lah bila dapat tahu sem 1 ada belajar calculus.

-huhuhu jadi huuuuhuuuuhuuuu bila dalam calculus tu ada pulak pasal differentiation dengan integration. Dua tajuk ni ialah tajuk soalan yang aku tinggal masa paper addmath SPM dolu dolu 😂

Aside from Calculus, aku belajar Programming, Database, Computer Organization and Architecture, dengan Multimedia System.

Programming - haa memula susah then okay then susah balik hmm. Memula macam dah yakin okay, inilah pilihan aku, ini lah kerjaya aku akan datang!!!!!! Lepastu.................. lepu /insert emoji daun berguguran/ Actually start lepu lepas aku ada tak datang satu kelas JE, then susah dah nak pickup. Ye la member ajar mana nak sama dengan lecturer ajar. Kesimpulannya. jangan ponteng kelas, kelak badan binasa.

Database- ni subjek den x berapa gomar sebenarnya sebab aku tak suka system yg organized ni maleh aku nak fikir. hahaha. Even ada coding pun coding dia fixed- tak macam programming yang nama boleh bagi suka hati and bentuk code pun boleh tukar-tukar. Tapi!!!! Ni lah subjek yang biasanya aku perform time kuiz or lab test kalau nak dibandingkan dengan yang lain 😂 Tapi aku tak minat. Tapi aku perform. So??!!?!?!?!?!?!?!

COA- ni subjek fav sebab lecturer comel and inspiring. En Erman tu selalu cerita macam mana dia dulu student beshe beshe je, yang takde basic IT pun, tapi Alhamdulillah berkat usaha dia dapat jadi lecturer IT. Dah la comel, baik pulak tu!! Anddddd dia suka kucing!! So of course la aku suka kan. Tapi!!!!! Subjek ni lah paling susah nak perform 😂 Aku tak tahu la asal complicated sangat computer ni yang susah gilo nak faham.

Multimedia System- ni pulak, aku minat je sebab ada kena mengena dengan multimedia- photoshop, illustrator, animation, audio, video bagai. Memang best la, tapi theoretically nya aku songih yo la 😅 Ini pun complicated jugak dia punya theory, and toksah cerita la time lecture bosan gila 😪 Aku rasa ramai pegi lecture pun sebab nak jaga hati lecturer je 😂🔫

Calculus- addmath season 2

And now tengah study week seminggu then final. Nak tambah sikit cerita kitorang punya assignment Multimedia tu due date hari jumaat lepas, pukul 5 petang. Hari jumat tu jugak baru nak buat and hantar pukul 4:56 p.m 😂😂 Jangan tiru aksi ini di mana jua anda berada. Huuuuu.

Sebenarnya tadi plan nak sembang pasal benda lain tapi ini lah hasilnya so-

-redha je lah. Korang dah sampai penghujung entry dah pun 😛

2016 dah nak sampai hujungnya so maybe next post is 2016 appreciation post, kalau takde, haa tunggu lah study week sem 2 pulak baru aku update 😂

Assalamualaikum 😊

when will i stop worrying about a guy smh