Assalamualaikum guys!
You guys can probably guess why I'm here. Dah bosan sangat habis segala social media scroll, barulah nak teringat diri sendiri ada blog hahaha. How are you guys doing during this RMO period?

        It amuses me. 3 months ago we couldn't even imagine we would be stuck at home due to a pandemic. Bosan, yes, sometimes memang mati akal tak tahu dah nak buat apa. But to be bored right now is a privilege. Setiap kali nak mengeluh, "bosannyaaaaaaaa", teringat frontliners semua, they probably would PAY to be as bored as us. I myself ada kakak doctor, walaupun baru houseman, but she works in an environment yang lebih terdedah dengan risiko virus ni even though dia tak involved directly. She underwent screening for Covid-19 because one of her colleagues is infected, as I'm typing this, she's still in quarantine. Hopefully the result of the test would be negative. So guys, hargailah kebosanan ini ☝🏻

         Life update, my laptop broke down just a few days after RMO officially starts. So right now I'm updating with my phone. Sekarang baru nak hargai laptop. Dulu ada laptop malas update. Haaa taip la kau guna phone 😂 If I have my laptop maybe I'll have more choice of activities to do, like designing, self-learn new Adobe Photoshop/Illustrator skill... Acah je tu, I'll probably end up just watching k-drama on a bigger screen compared to my phone. Tapi, itulah, ada hikmahnya jugak sebab sekarang tengah cuti so I don't need to use the laptop for urgent matters such as study or online class. My current semester is put on halt until June. Cuma, nak repair laptop pun tak boleh jugak sebab tak ada orang nak repair. So terbiar sepi laptop tu buat sementara waktu. Tapi I lagi kesian dekat adik I sebenarnya, dia maybe happy dapat cuti lama, kalau laptop I okay mesti sakan dia main game hahaha.

         So what I've been doing this few weeks... Tak ada apa yang productive sangat pun. Just tengok kdrama, on-going kdramas I'm watching right now are When the Weather is Fine and Welcome. Besides kdrama, I'm getting to know new Kpop group yang dah lama usha tapi tak sempat kenal-kenal nama. Kpop kan ramai, muka sama kan 🙄 If you guys bosan sangat bolehlah berjinak-jinak dengan dunia pengkpopan. Banyak content nak catch up, mesti tak bosan hahaha. Oh, I dah berjinak main UNO, I mean main online, dekat apps. Almost everyday main. Pengajaran main UNO is jangan tamak and sekarang dah tahu kenapa berjudi tu haram 😂 It's addicting when you bet and get back more than the amount that you bet. Other than UNO, I just go back and forth between my 162552 accounts on twitter. Yep, on twitter je. Apps lain I malas bukak. Probably bukak instagram 3 kali sekali, unless I nak update story lebih sikit so lebihlah bukak ig tu. Whatsapp pun I mostly respond to my friend's groupchat je. Yang lain I baca through notification je or reply guna nawaitu. Betul-betul social distancing ni.

        Dah taip-taip baru sedar betapa worthless dan tak ada isinya post ni hahaha. Untuk ada sedikit pengajaran, I nak selitkan, if you guys ada rezeki lebih, bolehlah cari any NGO or trusted organization yang open donation for those in needsㅡ orang yang betul-betul susah. I mean, of course tak ada masalah nak donate untuk zoo, untuk KKM, untuk other frontliners, but if ada rezeki lebih, if you guys nak tolong, please look for donation untuk fellow saudara kita yang kesusahan. Or maybe pekerja asing, some of them on normal days pun kena tindas majikan, apatahlagi time pandemic yang ekonomi syarikat majikan diorang sedikit sebanyak terjejas ni.

Okay tu je hehe bye guys stay safe, duduk rumah diam-diam, nak bising boleh kalau tak ada jiran.
Assalamualaikum 😊

Kompleks Sukan, UTeM, Melaka | 27 April 2018

Assalamualaikum!
Is it too late to wish Happy Fasting to everyone? Hehehe selamat berpuasa semua!! May our Ramadhan this year is filled with barakah and may we all get to use this chance to strengthen our iman and stay istiqamah to do the ibadah. Amiin!!

       I've been wanting to write on this topic for quite a few times, but my laziness got in between so,,,, yeah hahaha. What makes me want to write on this topic again is because recently UPU result for SPM leavers came out, and I've been seeing tweets regarding the results they get- which, reminds me of this repetitive story on how I ended up taking Diploma in ICT in UTeM.

       I told this story to basically everyone close to me. This course is my 11th choice out of 12 given. Itu pun, aku actually letak ICT ni sebab ni macam course yang aku boleh bawak kot compared to science-related course like engineering, etc although I was a science stream student. My original ambition was to be an English teacher as I love the subject and my sister is an English teacher too so watching her kinda inspire me. But then last minute suddenly I nak jadi cikgu tadika. I pun tak tahu kenapa 😂 So basically, I was contemplating between those two lah. So my UPU application focused on those two, and selebihnya yang nak isi ruang-ruang kosong tu, I filled in with ICT-related course. Oh, ada jugak selit course masscomm for fun, went to the interview but I didn't do well so I didn't put my hope high. Although I am very interested to pursue in masscomm just because the campus is in Melaka.

       Even with no high hope, I did think of the possibility of me passing that interview kan so I sukalah kalau dapat belajar dekat Melaka sebab I lived in Johor, born there, grow up there, until I was 14 before I moved to Kuantan. My point is, while I'm in Johor, my family always go to Melaka so I thought that it would be nostalgic to go back to Melaka to study. Long story short, when the UPU result came out, I was so confused because I don't even remember applying for Diploma in ICT?!?!?! And then it hits me, "Oh, ni course aku letak nak isi tempat kosong tu,". But I think I am not as disappointed considering the fact that being a teacher is the only profession I ever dreamed of when I was 15-17 years old. I'm more 'okay' than I thought with what I get. Turns out there's a lot of my classmate who didn't even get any offer for UPU so I'm even more thankful to get one. Although I have no idea where this course will take me in the future, I'm happy with the fact that it's in Melaka!

       3 years of diploma, it wasn't my best performance I would say. I think I can do better if I try harder, but, it was bearable and survivable, thanks to my family and friends. And along the way of learning a course I truly had no pure intention of getting accepted, along the way of learning the "fill-in-the-UPU-blank" course, I found what I truly want to do for life.

       I've always known this- I am a bad teacher. I can't express what I understand in a way that can help others to understand. Even in high school, I'm not the kind of student that you can refer to or ask questions because I honestly, don't know. I think I understand, but I'm always not sure enough to teach others. But by studying before exam, I ended up scoring my exam fairly well. I am aware at the fact that I can't teach for anyone's sake, but I was in denial. Because at that time I only see 'teacher' as my ambition. My world at that time was so so small, so I was stuck there. And somehow, I also realize that I'm bad with kids. I, honestly, only like kind kids hahaha. I don't like the annoying ones. I'm quite hot-tempered too. So, along the 3 years of learning this leftover course, along the 3 years of finding what I think I have passion in, I realize that I am truly not made for my previous ambitions.

        Now, here is where the dependence part comes on. That was a looong intro, right? Hahahaha. So as I've mention a looot of time in my previous post, I decided to take a break after diploma and apply for UPU instead for degree. It's a lie if I say I don't feel anything seeing my friends and batchmates pursuing for their degree already. Okay, a little promo for my boys, there's 2 songs that give me a lot of strength- My Pace and Grow Up by Stray Kids. Do check them out on Youtube hehehehe. Check the lyrics, it fits well with my concern so I really relate a lot to it. Moving on, I filled in the UPU application with what I want to pursue, all of them are ICT-related. 18 years-old me would be shook if she know this hahahaha. I do stress and think a lot in choosing the option but this time I'm more concerned on the location instead. Either close to home or close to my other friends 😂 I prioritize home though because I only have one option for that. Anyways, after sending the application, I feel at ease. I don't have an exact wish on my UPU result, I just hope I get one, anywhere, I don't feel like it matters anymore.

Because I've seen it- I've seen how God gives me the 11th choice out of 12 that I had, and that choice ended up making me discover myself. Makes me realizes that what you want doesn't necessarily be the best for you, and what you don't want doesn't necessarily mean it's bad for you. I've seen how God gives me what the best for me, so this time, too, I'll depend on Him. I know, He knows the best.

       The dependence leads to the sense of security. Even if didn't get my first choice or any choice at all, I know, I'm sure, I believe, I will find the hikmah sooner or later. Cliche, but there's always a reason behind why something happen. I'm not saying I'm always happy during my 3 years of diploma. I had my fair share of breakdowns too, especially the last two semesters. So what I mean by the best is not the-always-sunshine-and-rainbow kind of best, it's the I-went-through-a-lot-and-from-it-I-also-learnt-a-lot kind of best. So, whatever you're going through in life, believe me, you will be thankful of it, sooner or later.

So that's all I guess. Assalamualaikum 😊

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” (QS. Al Baqarah: 216)

I'm not emo but CAN NAM JOOHYUK STOP LOOKING SO GOOD FOR A FUCKING SECOND?!???!?!?!??!?!

Assalamualaikum :D
let's just skip intro since i suck at it...

        Okay so harini batch 98 kena troll. Kononnya result UPU keluar hari ni, tapi rupanya 16 Mei *ugly sobbing* Yang troll tu satu hal, yang twt_upu harini baru muncul tu satu hal, yang satu batch pun tak check betul ke tak pun satu hal jugak. Alahai kelakar betei. Apape pun, kita tunggu je lah kan ape resultnya. On the bright side, ada masa lagi untuk kita doa, mintak banyak-banyak pada Dia agar ada rezeki kita. semalam, bila aku sedar ada sehari je lagi sebelum result upu keluar (kononnya), aku rasa cuak gila sebab macam tak cukup je usaha aku mintak dari Allah. So bila ada masa ni, marilah kita memanfaatkan sebaik mungkin. Hehe.

         Oh ya, 23 April yang lepas, (perlu lah ayat skema?) aku ada pergi interview untuk course mass comm dekat UiTM Jengka. And sebenarnya aku ada jugak niat nak update blog pasal pengalaman interview aku tu. Aku paham la kan perasaan bila dapat tahu kena interview tu memang akan automatik nak tahu experience orang lain. So aku pun dengan rendah hatinya nak jugak tolong batch akan datang kan. Tapi aku segan sebab tak confident dapat ke tak. Oleh itu, aku pun ingat nak tunggu lepas dapat result UPU lah baru update. So bajet macam haa harini boleh dah lah update blog. Sekali.... kena tipu! Hahahhahaha. Tunggu lah next week pulak baru aku update. Dapat ke tak dapat, insyaAllah aku update jugak. Kalau dapat, boleh share pengalaman dengan orang lain, kalau tak dapat, mungkin boleh bg nasihat apa yg patut avoid. Tak giteww??

Cewah. Kemain lagi zahi le ni.

Ok lah tu je aku nak hapdet. Byeee.
Assalamualaikum :)

Can we go back to the time where we were just a normal friend? :(

Dengan ini saya mengesahkan bahawa saya pun terkena Song Joongki syndrome uhuk uhuk

No matter what happens in life, remember this :)

Semoga yang ditulis akan datang ni mendatangkan manfaat dan keamanan sejagat 😂