Mayang Sari Express, Melaka-KL | 5 Aug 2019

Did I mention I stanned 2-3 new Kpop groups during this break? ha ha

Kompleks Sukan, UTeM, Melaka | 27 April 2018

Assalamualaikum!
Is it too late to wish Happy Fasting to everyone? Hehehe selamat berpuasa semua!! May our Ramadhan this year is filled with barakah and may we all get to use this chance to strengthen our iman and stay istiqamah to do the ibadah. Amiin!!

       I've been wanting to write on this topic for quite a few times, but my laziness got in between so,,,, yeah hahaha. What makes me want to write on this topic again is because recently UPU result for SPM leavers came out, and I've been seeing tweets regarding the results they get- which, reminds me of this repetitive story on how I ended up taking Diploma in ICT in UTeM.

       I told this story to basically everyone close to me. This course is my 11th choice out of 12 given. Itu pun, aku actually letak ICT ni sebab ni macam course yang aku boleh bawak kot compared to science-related course like engineering, etc although I was a science stream student. My original ambition was to be an English teacher as I love the subject and my sister is an English teacher too so watching her kinda inspire me. But then last minute suddenly I nak jadi cikgu tadika. I pun tak tahu kenapa 😂 So basically, I was contemplating between those two lah. So my UPU application focused on those two, and selebihnya yang nak isi ruang-ruang kosong tu, I filled in with ICT-related course. Oh, ada jugak selit course masscomm for fun, went to the interview but I didn't do well so I didn't put my hope high. Although I am very interested to pursue in masscomm just because the campus is in Melaka.

       Even with no high hope, I did think of the possibility of me passing that interview kan so I sukalah kalau dapat belajar dekat Melaka sebab I lived in Johor, born there, grow up there, until I was 14 before I moved to Kuantan. My point is, while I'm in Johor, my family always go to Melaka so I thought that it would be nostalgic to go back to Melaka to study. Long story short, when the UPU result came out, I was so confused because I don't even remember applying for Diploma in ICT?!?!?! And then it hits me, "Oh, ni course aku letak nak isi tempat kosong tu,". But I think I am not as disappointed considering the fact that being a teacher is the only profession I ever dreamed of when I was 15-17 years old. I'm more 'okay' than I thought with what I get. Turns out there's a lot of my classmate who didn't even get any offer for UPU so I'm even more thankful to get one. Although I have no idea where this course will take me in the future, I'm happy with the fact that it's in Melaka!

       3 years of diploma, it wasn't my best performance I would say. I think I can do better if I try harder, but, it was bearable and survivable, thanks to my family and friends. And along the way of learning a course I truly had no pure intention of getting accepted, along the way of learning the "fill-in-the-UPU-blank" course, I found what I truly want to do for life.

       I've always known this- I am a bad teacher. I can't express what I understand in a way that can help others to understand. Even in high school, I'm not the kind of student that you can refer to or ask questions because I honestly, don't know. I think I understand, but I'm always not sure enough to teach others. But by studying before exam, I ended up scoring my exam fairly well. I am aware at the fact that I can't teach for anyone's sake, but I was in denial. Because at that time I only see 'teacher' as my ambition. My world at that time was so so small, so I was stuck there. And somehow, I also realize that I'm bad with kids. I, honestly, only like kind kids hahaha. I don't like the annoying ones. I'm quite hot-tempered too. So, along the 3 years of learning this leftover course, along the 3 years of finding what I think I have passion in, I realize that I am truly not made for my previous ambitions.

        Now, here is where the dependence part comes on. That was a looong intro, right? Hahahaha. So as I've mention a looot of time in my previous post, I decided to take a break after diploma and apply for UPU instead for degree. It's a lie if I say I don't feel anything seeing my friends and batchmates pursuing for their degree already. Okay, a little promo for my boys, there's 2 songs that give me a lot of strength- My Pace and Grow Up by Stray Kids. Do check them out on Youtube hehehehe. Check the lyrics, it fits well with my concern so I really relate a lot to it. Moving on, I filled in the UPU application with what I want to pursue, all of them are ICT-related. 18 years-old me would be shook if she know this hahahaha. I do stress and think a lot in choosing the option but this time I'm more concerned on the location instead. Either close to home or close to my other friends 😂 I prioritize home though because I only have one option for that. Anyways, after sending the application, I feel at ease. I don't have an exact wish on my UPU result, I just hope I get one, anywhere, I don't feel like it matters anymore.

Because I've seen it- I've seen how God gives me the 11th choice out of 12 that I had, and that choice ended up making me discover myself. Makes me realizes that what you want doesn't necessarily be the best for you, and what you don't want doesn't necessarily mean it's bad for you. I've seen how God gives me what the best for me, so this time, too, I'll depend on Him. I know, He knows the best.

       The dependence leads to the sense of security. Even if didn't get my first choice or any choice at all, I know, I'm sure, I believe, I will find the hikmah sooner or later. Cliche, but there's always a reason behind why something happen. I'm not saying I'm always happy during my 3 years of diploma. I had my fair share of breakdowns too, especially the last two semesters. So what I mean by the best is not the-always-sunshine-and-rainbow kind of best, it's the I-went-through-a-lot-and-from-it-I-also-learnt-a-lot kind of best. So, whatever you're going through in life, believe me, you will be thankful of it, sooner or later.

So that's all I guess. Assalamualaikum 😊

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” (QS. Al Baqarah: 216)

Damansara, Kuantan | 2 Ogos 2018

Assalamualaikum!
Guys!!! Remember Zahi said to update her blog more frequently?? Yes!! That! Didn't!! Happen!!!!!
Let's go through what I've been doing since the end of diploma some other day, hopefully. But for now!!! I ada K-drama nak recommend untuk korang yang ada masa free nak tengok drama and untuk korang yang busy tapi sanggup tangguh kerja untuk tengok drama. Leggo!

This is the official poster for He Is Psychometric

Pangsapuri Sri Utama, MITC, Melaka | 5 Januari 2019

Assalamualaikum!
First post for 2019! Finally, after such a long time I am contemplating on what to post, put a few unfinished ones to draft, akhirnya, macam biasalah, yang tak plan tu jugaklah yang bergerak.

       2019. How young are you guys this year? I'm 21 this year. Wow dah lebih dua dekad hidup hahaha. Alhamdulillah. To be honest, since I become a university student, new years no longer give this special feeling I always feel when I was in school. Mostly because every year end and new year beginning is final exam season. So, tengah sibuk-sibuk nak exam tu anda rasa saya ada masa nak sambut tahun baru? Oh, which reminds me that when the clock strikes 00:00 on the 1st January 2019, my friends and I tengah dalam kereta nak drive thru McD hahaha. Our 2019's first meal 😂 And tengok bunga api dari dalam kereta je, ada la orang dekat dataran(?) dekat-dekat MITC tu pasang bunga api. Lepastu balik rumah macam tak ada apa-apa berlaku. Teruskan kehidupan makan tengah malam macam biasa.

       Azam pun, dah lama dah takde. Dah tahu dah bukan tercapai pun hahaha lagi-lagi azam nak kurangkan mencarut 😂 But this year, since dah umur doplohsatu kan, kenalah matang sikit. So I listed myself a few new year resolution and target.

Dan Zahidah masih lagi dengan bahasa rojaknya. Korang sabar je lah eh?

Teluk Cempedak, Kuantan | 9 Jun 2018

Assalamualaikum!

       So, as you guys know, or might not know, besides handlettering, I also do bullet journal, a.k.a bujo. You guys can simply Google to get the idea of what bullet journal is and how it looks like. Mine isn't as beautiful as pictures you guys might found, but, yeah, lebih kurang begitulah hahaha. I started bujo-ing since January 2017, so basically it's my second year bujo-ing. I ocassionally post pictures of my spread on my Instagram story and put it on highlights, and a few people replied that they're envious of how I'm able to keep up with journal-ing. So, since 2019 is coming real soon, maybe there's also some of you guys might be interested in bujo, but are afraid that it'll end up dibiarkan begitu saja terikat namun tak bertali, or fear that you guys might give up, here's some tricks that I can share.

1. You don't have to journal every single day.
       Although, you're everyday single, you don't necessarily need to journal everyday. Just like diary, you only write when there's anything funny, sad, interesting, etc happens in your life. Same goes with bullet journal. Most of the people in bullet journal community out there tends to design the spread before-hand so that's why you guys will see they have a complete days of the week in their bujo. As for me, that requires too much commitment and time, so I don't design before hand. That way, I can write only when I feel to because I'm not obligated to fill in the design for each day.

2. Decorate it!
      Now, here I'll get few excuses such as, "I tak berseni macam you", "I tak reti lukis", "Tulisan I tak lawa" and the list goes on. Although everything that is listed is wrong, as in, aku pun tak berseni, tak reti lukis, and tulisan buruk hahaha. However, decoration, doesn't necessary comes from you, if you know what I mean. It doesn't have to be something that you draw or write by yourself. You can always print out things, go to pinterest, and just type bullet journal printable, and tadaaa you'll see many things to choose from. Other than that, you can print out photos of your favourite artists, cartoons, or make it more meaningful by printing out selfies with your friends, photos of your cats, like, literally, anything. The point and uniqueness of bujo is it's only one in the whole world. You can never find a book, a journal similar to yours. So personalize it!

       If printing requires too much effort or time for you, you can always buy sticker from stores like Mr. D.I.Y (highly recommended sebab murah!) or Daiso or Kaison. If you say you don't know how to decorate your bujo, I suggest you to go through #bulletjournal on Instagram. You can get so many inspiration there. When I first started, I just directly copy how the bujo-ers paste their sticker, the senget benget, ada yang koyak-koyak kertas then tampal, tiru je. Just copy. Lama-lama, dah terbiasa and you know how to decorate your spread without any reference.

3. Everything doesn't have to be expensive and branded
       If you look on videos on Youtube, most of the bujo-ers have a branded notebook as their bujo. Of course, when it says branded, it means it costs quite some money. Plus, some of the things are hard to find in Malaysia unless you buy it online, and yes, shipping costs more money.

       For beginners I don't really suggest you to straight buy an expensive book for your journal, because for me, it took me halfway through the year barulah bujo I ada rupa bujo. 6 bulan sebelum tu, macam buku conteng budak tadika hahaha. So idk about you, but for me macam sayanglah buku dah mahal, tapi I ruined it. But if you memang berseni then of course you can spend money on it! If not, my suggestion is of course, notebook Mr. D.I.Y. But!!! There's very limited choice to choose from tbh because most of it are lined notebook and the lines are very obvious so that kinda ruin the spread. Kena pandai pilih. Ada line is okay, tapi kena cari yang line dia malu-malu camtu, macam nampak tak nampak je. You can also find your notebook at Daiso! This is recommended because Daiso have better choices of notebook. If you're lucky, you'll also find dotted and grid notebook, which the kind that lots of bujo-ers use. Harga still murah, design pun mostly cute je kan if from Daiso, so who wins? You win. Kaison also have many cute notebooks, but usually they sealed it with plastic so I don't really know how the inside looks like for most of it.

       Other than notebooks, decorations like tapes, stickers, sticky notes, Mr. D.I.Y got a looooot of cute ones and cost like RM 2~8 only. Same goes with pens! They got variety of pens, coloured, glittered, neon-coloured, mostly under RM10. It doesn't have to be from Muji, Stabilo, or any other well-known brands. This plays a part in your commitment to bujo-ing because let's say if your pen ran out of ink, you don't have the pressure to buy another one that cost quite an amount of money. Hope that makes sense, though.

4. If you don't have time, jot down in your phone first
       I understand, that nak betul-betul duduk, bawak keluar segala jenis pen, stickers blablabla and focus untuk journal almost everyday tu kadang-kadang leceh. So, if you're busy but still thought that whatever you went through is journal-worthy, you can always write in the Note in your phone first. Maybe you can write some important points so you wouldn't completely forget what happened? Kalau memory Dory macam I ni, memang senang je lupa so sometimes I do this. When it's weekend where I finally have some time and space to clear my mind and release my stress, baru I bukak my bujo. Senang, sekali tu je sepah-sepah pen terabur apa semua, and sekali tu je kemas everything semula.


So, I think that's all that I can share, for now? The most important thing is, do something that you're comfortable with. I do this bujo thing to release my stress, so let's say if I go too far out of what I'm comfortable with, that will just bring me another pressure. But, if you're okay with challenging yourself to do things that you've never done before, then why not? So, at the end, it all depends on yourself. I would love to upload some of my favourite spread in my blog someday, but let's wait until the day I have enough time to edit and blur out what I wrote in the journal since everything is too personal to share 😅 So let's keep that for next time, hopefully, soon.

Signing off.
Bye and Assalamualaikum! 😃

I'm still in dilemma whether to choose lined or blank-paged notebook for my bullet journal next year