Teluk Cempedak, Kuantan | 9 Jun 2018

Assalamualaikum!

       So, as you guys know, or might not know, besides handlettering, I also do bullet journal, a.k.a bujo. You guys can simply Google to get the idea of what bullet journal is and how it looks like. Mine isn't as beautiful as pictures you guys might found, but, yeah, lebih kurang begitulah hahaha. I started bujo-ing since January 2017, so basically it's my second year bujo-ing. I ocassionally post pictures of my spread on my Instagram story and put it on highlights, and a few people replied that they're envious of how I'm able to keep up with journal-ing. So, since 2019 is coming real soon, maybe there's also some of you guys might be interested in bujo, but are afraid that it'll end up dibiarkan begitu saja terikat namun tak bertali, or fear that you guys might give up, here's some tricks that I can share.

1. You don't have to journal every single day.
       Although, you're everyday single, you don't necessarily need to journal everyday. Just like diary, you only write when there's anything funny, sad, interesting, etc happens in your life. Same goes with bullet journal. Most of the people in bullet journal community out there tends to design the spread before-hand so that's why you guys will see they have a complete days of the week in their bujo. As for me, that requires too much commitment and time, so I don't design before hand. That way, I can write only when I feel to because I'm not obligated to fill in the design for each day.

2. Decorate it!
      Now, here I'll get few excuses such as, "I tak berseni macam you", "I tak reti lukis", "Tulisan I tak lawa" and the list goes on. Although everything that is listed is wrong, as in, aku pun tak berseni, tak reti lukis, and tulisan buruk hahaha. However, decoration, doesn't necessary comes from you, if you know what I mean. It doesn't have to be something that you draw or write by yourself. You can always print out things, go to pinterest, and just type bullet journal printable, and tadaaa you'll see many things to choose from. Other than that, you can print out photos of your favourite artists, cartoons, or make it more meaningful by printing out selfies with your friends, photos of your cats, like, literally, anything. The point and uniqueness of bujo is it's only one in the whole world. You can never find a book, a journal similar to yours. So personalize it!

       If printing requires too much effort or time for you, you can always buy sticker from stores like Mr. D.I.Y (highly recommended sebab murah!) or Daiso or Kaison. If you say you don't know how to decorate your bujo, I suggest you to go through #bulletjournal on Instagram. You can get so many inspiration there. When I first started, I just directly copy how the bujo-ers paste their sticker, the senget benget, ada yang koyak-koyak kertas then tampal, tiru je. Just copy. Lama-lama, dah terbiasa and you know how to decorate your spread without any reference.

3. Everything doesn't have to be expensive and branded
       If you look on videos on Youtube, most of the bujo-ers have a branded notebook as their bujo. Of course, when it says branded, it means it costs quite some money. Plus, some of the things are hard to find in Malaysia unless you buy it online, and yes, shipping costs more money.

       For beginners I don't really suggest you to straight buy an expensive book for your journal, because for me, it took me halfway through the year barulah bujo I ada rupa bujo. 6 bulan sebelum tu, macam buku conteng budak tadika hahaha. So idk about you, but for me macam sayanglah buku dah mahal, tapi I ruined it. But if you memang berseni then of course you can spend money on it! If not, my suggestion is of course, notebook Mr. D.I.Y. But!!! There's very limited choice to choose from tbh because most of it are lined notebook and the lines are very obvious so that kinda ruin the spread. Kena pandai pilih. Ada line is okay, tapi kena cari yang line dia malu-malu camtu, macam nampak tak nampak je. You can also find your notebook at Daiso! This is recommended because Daiso have better choices of notebook. If you're lucky, you'll also find dotted and grid notebook, which the kind that lots of bujo-ers use. Harga still murah, design pun mostly cute je kan if from Daiso, so who wins? You win. Kaison also have many cute notebooks, but usually they sealed it with plastic so I don't really know how the inside looks like for most of it.

       Other than notebooks, decorations like tapes, stickers, sticky notes, Mr. D.I.Y got a looooot of cute ones and cost like RM 2~8 only. Same goes with pens! They got variety of pens, coloured, glittered, neon-coloured, mostly under RM10. It doesn't have to be from Muji, Stabilo, or any other well-known brands. This plays a part in your commitment to bujo-ing because let's say if your pen ran out of ink, you don't have the pressure to buy another one that cost quite an amount of money. Hope that makes sense, though.

4. If you don't have time, jot down in your phone first
       I understand, that nak betul-betul duduk, bawak keluar segala jenis pen, stickers blablabla and focus untuk journal almost everyday tu kadang-kadang leceh. So, if you're busy but still thought that whatever you went through is journal-worthy, you can always write in the Note in your phone first. Maybe you can write some important points so you wouldn't completely forget what happened? Kalau memory Dory macam I ni, memang senang je lupa so sometimes I do this. When it's weekend where I finally have some time and space to clear my mind and release my stress, baru I bukak my bujo. Senang, sekali tu je sepah-sepah pen terabur apa semua, and sekali tu je kemas everything semula.


So, I think that's all that I can share, for now? The most important thing is, do something that you're comfortable with. I do this bujo thing to release my stress, so let's say if I go too far out of what I'm comfortable with, that will just bring me another pressure. But, if you're okay with challenging yourself to do things that you've never done before, then why not? So, at the end, it all depends on yourself. I would love to upload some of my favourite spread in my blog someday, but let's wait until the day I have enough time to edit and blur out what I wrote in the journal since everything is too personal to share 😅 So let's keep that for next time, hopefully, soon.

Signing off.
Bye and Assalamualaikum! 😃

I'm still in dilemma whether to choose lined or blank-paged notebook for my bullet journal next year

MITC, Melaka | 10 Jun 2017

Why must I decide about tomorrow, today?
How should I know what tomorrow will bring?
My path and dreams are fading
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Again today, there are questions that I don't know the answer
I'm trying to answer, but I'm not confident
Is it this way, or is it that way?
I'm slowly becoming afraid of my decision
Tomorrow, Today- JJ Project

The Heights Residence, Melaka | 5 April 2018

Assalamualaikum!
Hi guys, as I mentioned in my previous, previous post, I'm starting my Industrial Training atau bahasa kampungnya Latihan Industri atau bahasa pemalasnya, LI, so I'm here to share how it has been going so far.

       Some of you guys might know, or might not know that I'm a Diploma student in course ICT, but I undergo my LI at SMK Pelabuhan, Kuantan. Yes, a school. While orang lain sibuk cari company, school has always been in my first target, and is the first number I gave a call. The reason is, first, sebab I memang tahu sekolah ni pernah ambil student IT untuk LI. Second, my sister is a teacher here- bukan nak pakai cable eh- tapi sebab senang nak commute. Third, I've always want to be a teacher, tapi tak kesampaian. Tak adalah expect diri ini nak mengajar pun, cuma I just want to experience working environment dekat sekolah, dengan cikgu-cikgu, and students. So, yes, sekolah it is. SMKP pun terima aku dengan hati terbuka, lagilah aku terus malas nak cari tempat lain.

So this is my view everyday and yes, that's twitter in the background ahshsajja

       I'm placed at the school's computer lab which I loike very the muchi because aircond!! Although now my skin is getting dryer that it already is blergh. Tapi okaylah at least tak panas peluh lecak-lecak kan hahaha.  My working scope is not that heavy, I believe. Just adalah design sikit-sikit, tolong student or cikgu bila ada problem, hias-hias makmal sikit-sikit. And disebabkan sekolah ni tak cukup cikgu camtu, so ada jugak dapat relief kelas hahahaha I FEEL SO CIKGU TAHU TAK AKSKSKSK. Especially bila the students call me cikgu. Kalau ikutkan, aku sedar diri je aku ni tak layak dipanggil cikgu, like I don't have the qualification pun okay. But my boss, tuan pengetua bagi je the students call me cikgu so we still have boundaries, because, umur tak jauh beza pun haa aku ni pangkat kakak-kakak je dengan diorang. So my boss doesn't want them to become disrespectful la gitu.

With students present in the lab

       Socializing was... uh, so-so. I'm a socially awkward person, it's really hard for me to make new friends tbh, especially in this working environment where I'm the youngest here, and everyone is a teacher, and much older so I'm more to scared I'd done something rude or disrespectful to them. Cuma, things are a little okay because everyone already know me as 'Adik Izati'- which is my sister. Btw, my sister moved to other school just before I started my LI :-----) It does bring me somewhat a pressure though because of course, people will somehow compare, and my sister and I are completely different in personalities, physically we're pretty much similar so everyone's like "muka sama je dia dengan Izati" hahahaha. Personality-wise, I'm less patient than her, so kalau ada yang cari pasal tu firstly memang muka aku obvious gilalah bila annoyed. But so far, ada satu cikgu and satu kelas ni je betul-betul get on my nerve 😤

I think that's all for now? I think I'll update more about my whole experience once my LI is over, that, if I have time to sit and write because after LI terus start new sem a.k.a my last semester for diploma!

Bye and Assalamualaikum 😊

Oh, my blog has new look! It's not completely done yet but what do you think?

Segamat, Johor | 24 Mac 2018

Assalamualaikum!
Harini entah kenapa rasa nak bukak cerita ni. I personally think cerita pasal aku dengan crush form 1 aku ni menarik, tapi aku tak ada skill bercerita yang menarik so let's see how this will turn out 😂

       Masa aku form 1 tu rasanya term 'crush' ni tak wujud or tak digunakan secara berleluasa (gittew) lagi so masa tu tak panggil crush la kot? Masa mula-mula masuk sekolah tu aku suka orang lain ekceli, sampai la satu masa ni ada sorang classmate aku ni usik sorang budak lelaki ni nama dia D**** dengan aku. Padahal kitorang tak pernah bertegur apatahlagi berborak. So aku macam '???? asal lak kaitkan mamat tu dengan aku????'. Pastu aku start notice D tu, and baru aku perasan D tu comel gak ehehehehew. Tapi disebabkan classmate aku usik-usik kitorang, kitorang tak pernah bercakap pun. Berdiri jarak 5 meter pun ada bunyi-bunyi, macam mana nak berkawan?

      Interaction aku dengan D tu kira dalam setahun form 1 tu boleh kiralah berapa kali je. Paling selalu pun eye-contact. Tu pun dah boleh buat hati mak yang berumur 13 tahun yang masih innocent ini berbunga-bunga. Selain tu adalah pernah berdiri sebelah-sebelah dalam makmal and bercakap sikit masa tengok result experiment, pastu dia pernah lompat kerusi, I mean dia nampak kerusi lepastu dia lompat melepasi kerusi tu dekat luar kelas lepastu aku tegur, sebab dia atlet yang lari berpagar tu. Setakat macam tu je lah. Lagipun aku duduk asrama, and crush aku tu budak luar so aku tak ada phone nak text ke, main fb ke apa ke memang jarang sangatlah. Rasanya kitorang friend kot dekat fb tapi tak pernah chat pun. Cuma masa tu, dekat blog nilah aku cerita pasal dia, tapi masa tu link blog lama lah. Sekarang dah tukar. Tak sure aku delete ke archieve je post aku. Tapi, setakat tu je lah.

      Oh, ada satu ni cute gila. Pada aku yang berusia 13 tahun masa tu cute la okay. Masa tu dekat luar surau, ustaz buat kelas PI dekat situ, tapi masa tu cam leklek la tak belajar sangat. Rasanya tengah buat hafazan kot so yang tak menghafaz cam lek lah kan. Aku masa tu tengah tolong gunting apa entah ustaz suruh. So, bayangkan eh susunan kitorang ni semua duduk bersila atas lantai lepastu ada rehal kayu sorang satu, budak lelaki dekat depan then baru budak perempuan. Aku duduk barisan budak perempuan yang depan sekali. Kiranya lepas budak lelaki tu barisan akulah kan. Aku, dengan si D ni memang payah sangat sangat sangat nak bertegur and bercakap okay. Lepastu, tengah gunting-gunting tu, tiba-tiba si D ni yang duduk tak jauh dari aku pusing belakang and bergerak sikit so dia menghadap tempat aku, yang macam nak borak dengan aku tu!! TAPI!!! Ustaz nampak so dia cam "Aipp tu buat apa tu pandang depan!" lepastu D ni dengan muka kecewa pusing depan balik. Lahai. Please cakap ni cute ahahahahah.

       Ada satu kali tu, D tertinggal botol air dia tau dekat atas meja. Lepastu aku ambik botol air dia tu, bawak balik asrama. Then esoknya aku basuhkan and isi air untuk dia ahahahaha lepastu letak atas meja dia WEH AKU SWEET GILA KOT!???!?!!??! Please cakap aku sweet.

      Masa aku form 1, aku sekolah menengah dekat Johor. And masa tu, dah dapat tahu masa form 2 aku kena pindah Pahang sebab abah tukar tempat kerja, cuma tak tahu exactly bila. Mungkin awal tahun, mungkin tengah tahun, camtu. So aku cam adalah rasa syahdu nak pindah, nak tinggal crush kan huhu. Tapi, rupa-rupanya!!! Crush aku pun nak pindah tapiiii dia nak pindah hujung tahun masa form 1 tu. Kiranya, tahun depan, dia memang dah takde terus tu. Pergh aku punya sedih dan rasa dikhianati masa tu takyah cerita la. Sedih kot? Dahlah kitorang ni tak berkawan pun? Lepastu dia dah nak blah dah? Korang faham tak perasaan aku masa tu? Tapi, kitorang masih takde effort nak berkawan hahahha. Aku just usha dia dari jauh and senyap-senyap je. Tak tahu nak approach dia, nak lagi rapat dengan dia macam mana.

      Sampailah minggu last sekolah, aku decide untuk bagi something lah dekat dia. Aku bagi dia kayu (ya kayu) tapi ada lukisan akak dorm aku, comel jugaklah lukisan tu ala-ala anime gitu, dengan ada aku tulis-tulis sikit tapi aku tak ingat apa aku tulis. Hari last sekolah, aku bawak benda tu pergi sekolah, nak letak dalam beg dia. Aku target waktu rehat je lah, sebab hujung-hujung sekolah ni bukan belajar pun so memang spend time dalam kelas je. Waktu rehat je lah yang free untuk aku jalankan misi aku ni. Masa rehat, aku nak keluar kelas nak beli makanan, and D tu ada dekat luar kelas, dia sorang je, pastu kitorang ter-eye-contact tau, tapi cam biasalah awkward pastu aku blah camtu je. Lepas aku balik kelas, D dah takde. So aku pun jalankanlah tugas aku. Berjaya jugaklah aku letak kayu tu dalam beg dia. Lepastu, sampai loceng terakhir, loceng nak balik tu bunyi, kitorang still tak bertegur or cakap apape. And tu last day dia kot :') Last day aku jumpa dia kot :') Tragis weh tragis.

      Tapi, tu belum cukup tragis lagi. Lepastu, aku dengan dia memang lansung tak contact. Tak tahu khabar apa-apa pun. Kalau tak silaplah. Pejam celik pejam celik, dah form 2. Maknanya aku pun dah pindah sekolah dekat Pahang. Tetiba, ada satu malam ni, D chat aku dekat fb. Aku cam terkejutlah kan sebab manalah kitorang pernah bertegur, berborak sebelum ni. Kitorang pun borak-borak and ada sekali tu D kata dia tak percaya dia tengah borak dengan aku, walaupun through fb je alolo comel. Lepastu, D ni ada ungkit tau pasal kayu yang aku bagi tu. Aku gelak je lah sebab bila ingat balik macam segan pulak. Masa tu pun aku dah lupa apa aku tulis dekat kayu tu. And then tak lama sangat kitorang keep in touch masa tu sebab aku tak ada access to internet selalu, masa tu noob lagi rumah takde wifi. So jaranglah kitorang contact. And still, nothing happened.

      Then, pejam celik pejam celik lagi sekali, dah form 3.Dah ada crush baru dah pun. Crush baru ni yang ada harapan sikitlah sebab kali ni kitorang sekelas tapi kitorang bercakap, borak, blablabla. And nampaklah dia pun macam suka aku ahahahaha (you know who you are, mana tahu baca ke kan hahahaha) Tak macam aku dengan D dululah. Masa aku form 1, aku ni sejenis obses dengan cartoon Domo tau. Kalau tak tahu domo tu apa boleh google. Then ada satu beg domo ni aku selalu bawak pergi kelas, pergi prep semualah. Tetiba satu hari masa aku dah form 3 tu, kakak aku nak pinjam beg aku. Aku pun haa kk jap nak bawak keluar semua barang. Aku seluk segala jenis poket, then tetiba ada satu kertas lipat-lipat dekat poket beg tu. Aku pun excitedlah sebab aku ingatkan tu surat kawan aku Haliza pernah bagi masa sebelum aku nak pindah, surat perpisahanlah kiranya. Aku memang cari surat Haliza tu merata-rata tapi tak jumpa. Aku happy-lah bila aku nampak surat tu.

Bila aku pusingkan surat tu, ada tulis, (please jangan muntah), 'Untuk sumber inspirasi, Nurul Zahidah'. Aku macam... ???? Haliza???? Sejak bila pulak aku sumber inspirasi dia ni??? Lepas tu aku bukak... Korang tahu tak scene dalam drama bila orang baca surat and terkaku, ter-speechless, terdiam dan terkejut dan segala jenis ter lah. IT'S FROM D!!! Aku jumpa surat dia after 2 freaking years??!!! Weh... Sumpah aku terkejut gila time tu. And guess what? He confessed in that letter... Surat tu dia bagi masa last day dia dekat sekolah tu. The same day aku bagi kayu dekat dia. A few things yang aku ingat dia tulis dalam surat tu, dia sedih sebab kena pindah sekolah, nak tinggalkan kawan-kawan yang dia grow up with, lepas tu nak tinggal crush dia (aku la tu hehehe) weh sumpah sedih do. Lepastu dia suruh jaga diri :-( Lepastu dia tanya lepasni aku nak suka siapa pulak lepas dia takde :-( Lepastu dia kata aku buat dia happy :-( Sumpah cute :-( Lepastu, paling cutelah ni aku rasa, dia belajar bahasa korea sebab aku suka korea :-( :-( :-( Dia minat group korea yang aku minat :-( :-( :-( :-( Dia tulis saranghaeyo dalam tulisan korea :-( :-( :-( :-( :-(

Sedihlah gais....

      Patutlah masa dia mention kayu tu, dia macam... Tak habis-habis cakap pasal kayu tu, dia macam nak nak trigger aku and aku rasa dia nak buat aku cakap pasal surat dia tapiiii masa tu aku tak jumpa lagi surat dia 😭 Sumpah aku terharu gila dengan surat dia. And tulisan dia pun lawa gila (k ni random). Tapi serious, that's like the cutest letter ever. Tapi... Aku tak pernah bagitahu dia pun yang aku lambat jumpa surat dia tu. Lepastu aku cerita dekat kawan aku ni, Manisah, pasal dia. Aku tak ingat D dengan Manisah ni friend dekat fb before tu lagi ke, or lepas aku cerita pasal surat tu, tapi D ni kenal Manisah tu as kawan aku lah. Manisah kata D tu selalu je tanya pasal aku dekat dia.

Aku rasa masa tu aku tak buat apa-apa pun sebab aku pun dah ada crush baru. Nasib baik last-last bercinta jugak dengan crush baru tu, tapi last-last putus gak hahahaha.

       Sekarang, aku betul-betul tak tahu mana D. Last contact yang kitorang ada, wechat (ye I dak wicet dulu). Fb aku dah tak bukak lansung. Lepasni aku bukak, nak cari fb dia, ntah-ntah dah kawin dah orangnya hahahaha manalah tahu kan? Aku je sibuk cerita lagi pasal dia hahaha.

Sampai sekarang bila aku fikir and teringat pasal dia, ajaib betul macam mana aku boleh jumpa surat dia tu 2 tahun kemudian. Aku selit surat tu dalam diary form 1 aku, tapi aku tak tahu diary aku tu dekat mana lepas dah berpindah-randah ni. Nanti kalau aku jumpa, aku update. InsyaAllah.

Wherever you are, D, thank you for being cute and giving me such cute memories!

Okay, tu je kot. Assalamualaikum 😊

I miss the feeling of having crush that actually likes me back 😂

Teluk Chempedak, Kuantan, Pahang | 28 April 2018

Selamat berpuasa fellow readers 💜